A better, or a worse year?

31 Dec, and I still stick in the CC alone. The usual merry, packed CC was gone. Lemme guess, all people are countdown in Parkson = =

Me? I just don't have the mood to shout "ten, nine, eight", and making myself sweating, and p erhapscursing because of bustling and hustling with the audience. As usual, I had my own countdown in CC- my unique yet boring type of spending time waiting for a new year.

And I finally finnished the creepy survival horror game before 2008, to be precise, at 11.38p.m. when I snapped the horrible ghost with another killing blow snap.

FUNNY. I used to have lots of nightmare while playing the game, and even staying alone in the house give me some unknown creep. But right after I finnished the game, and watched the ending, the feeling just disappeared.

Perhaps love and compassion exists, even to those spirit that you might fear.

Ok, time to say, my new year resolution. Sounds impossible, but it won't hurt by just bluffing.

1. Having a girlfriend - (unless some mutation or plastic surgery which I couldn;t afford, I could just ignore this one)

2. Getting a high CGPA- ( until one day when an evil kian hui "accidentally" smashed my laptop, it is impossible t happen)

3. A whole ride bike around malaysia- (problem is, i don't even have my bike)

4. Win in a debate against Cj or wei young -(That...I don't think it will happen unless both of them happened to get dumb or watsoever

5. Defeat Chau Kee in a DotA game- ( unless sth happened to chau kee's laptop while playing, it is another impossible thing to be done.)

=.=

Is this a new year resolution for someone going to US?

Well, I have some little resolution though
-To be more matured and calm in daily communication
-To be able to see this world as a world with more hope, and less scepticism
-To be able to shackle the past
-To be more responsible and more determined in own belief
-and also to know what is "love and care".

And finally, a new lappie if possible. (HP Core 2 duo 2GB ram 250 SATA HDD NvDIA 9600 with crystal screemn would be best)

Or a new series of books will do

MINASAN (everyone), happy new year. And though India and Pakistan is on verge of war, economy in recession, seeming endless political laughter, or perhaps, more unimaginable things could have happened.

But still, hold a high hope for this new year.

The year of 2009, the bull!!!!!!!!!!!!!!year

Does Mr . Santa Claus exist?

I never consider this question, cuz the moment I know Santa, I know he is just a commercial figure to ask u to buy more stuff.

But, maybe I have to think twice, and for people that thought the same as I , this is just for you

From THE SUN 19

"DEAR EDITOR: I am 8 years old. "Some of my little friends say there is no Santa Claus. "Papa says, 'If you see it in THE SUN it's so.' "Please tell me the truth; is there a Santa Claus?"VIRGINIA O'HANLON."115 WEST NINETY-FIFTH STREET."

VIRGINIA, your little friends are wrong. They have been affected by the skepticism of a skeptical age. They do not believe except [what] they see. They think that nothing can be which is not comprehensible by their little minds. All minds, Virginia, whether they be men's or children's, are little. In this great universe of ours man is a mere insect, an ant, in his intellect, as compared with the boundless world about him, as measured by the intelligence capable of grasping the whole of truth and knowledge.

Yes, VIRGINIA, there is a Santa Claus. He exists as certainly as love and generosity and devotion exist, and you know that they abound and give to your life its highest beauty and joy. Alas! how dreary would be the world if there were no Santa Claus. It would be as dreary as if there were no VIRGINIAS.

There would be no childlike faith then, no poetry, no romance to make tolerable this existence. We should have no enjoyment, except in sense and sight. The eternal light with which childhood fills the world would be extinguished.Not believe in Santa Claus! You might as well not believe in fairies! You might get your papa to hire men to watch in all the chimneys on Christmas Eve to catch Santa Claus, but even if they did not see Santa Claus coming down, what would that prove?

Nobody sees Santa Claus, but that is no sign that there is no Santa Claus. The most real things in the world are those that neither children nor men can see. Did you ever see fairies dancing on the lawn? Of course not, but that's no proof that they are not there. Nobody can conceive or imagine all the wonders there are unseen and unseeable in the world.

You may tear apart the baby's rattle and see what makes the noise inside, but there is a veil covering the unseen world which not the strongest man, nor even the united strength of all the strongest men that ever lived, could tear apart. Only faith, fancy, poetry, love, romance, can push aside that curtain and view and picture the supernal beauty and glory beyond. Is it all real?

Ah, VIRGINIA, in all this world there is nothing else real and abiding. No Santa Claus! Thank God! he lives, and he lives forever. A thousand years from now, Virginia, nay, ten times ten thousand years from now, he will continue to make glad the heart of childhood.

From New York Sun 1897

P.S. a little piece of text for ur Xmas

A lost soul in Christmas

The sound of rock music echoes, and voices of people shouting fervently for their game can be heard the whole time, as I sit alone in this CC, becoming one of the lost souls in Christmas.

They are the people who cannot find their way in the mass of people, that had failed to find the term myself among the midst of poeple they know. They indulged in the world of digital, a world of internet , perhaps the most unreliable thing in this world. Yet these are the best thing that he or she could have grasped. In the wirtual world, he has a different identity, a different view, a different thing to do, that could possibly throw him out of sadness of reality.

Especially in this Christmas, when loves and care fills the air, there seems to be a group of people that is unable to love someone, or not loved and cared. There seems to have people that fails of distinguish Christmas with another day. To them, christmas is just another one of his hundred excuse to leave the house, or the cage of reality perhaps for someone, and indulge themselves in these seeming unreliable digital world.

We are the ones who perhaps who choose to ignore, choose not to acknowledge the presence of Him. Even though the heat of love of him is radiant, it coulf never reach the cold's space of them. The radiant seems to be to hot, or perhaps too surplus, for a cool heart resides in a person.

We are The Lost Soul of Christmas. We're the ones who Santa would never give a visit to.

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Today, I had the worst Christmas ever...

Yesterday, there's a ex-schoolmate gathering. I half-hearted attended the gathering. The skepticism within me told me that it's going to be another dull gathering for me. Or perhaps, I scared to go there.

To see my own mistake, my silly past, seeing the me who has been once helpless before.

I reached the gathering, and greeted by one of those stupid nicknames I "honorly" earned during my school years. Before this, I could have turned into a tall face, or refuted what I say. However, I smirked at them, and sat down quietly, disappointingly telling myself " They still haven't changed. do they."

During the whole gathering, I fall to silence, as I listened to their experiences, and in the end, loaded by crap, ranging from " I've just done a concert in Tokyo to Do you want to lost ur virginity tonight,"

Utter nonsense.

In the next one hour, I excused myself to toilet, and then run ro the nearest CC to have a game.

SAm I being too sensitive after two years, or am I becoming more pesimism within these two years, I couldn't have known.

Another bored and "miserable" Christmas Eve.
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Christmas!

Wake up la, you have to work at 7a.m., so let's get working.

Having a chicken chop for lunch, asked the co-worker of mine to prepare a turkey to me, but he replied, there's a bunch of lightfire there if you wanted to smoke.

Laughed at his reply (huo ji (turkey) and the lighter (da huo ji) sounds the same.

And today friends called me to have a nadminton game in a resort, in the end, my trousers broke into half, and my two-years spectacle broken.

And when I reached home, an electronic breakout happened just when I arrived home.

And now, I am typing on a computer, after mom's failed attempt to let me stay at home.

Tonight, do you see a cart with reindeer pass through the night of Xmas, I don't, cuz Santa never show himself to the mischevious kid.

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Happy Christmas to all of you, and remember, this is perhaps ur last christmas in Malaysia, or in your own state.

And remember to cherish those one you love, and learn to love in this Christmas.

Xmas is a time when you learn to bless , love giving and receiving bless from everyone, though business has commercialized Xmas into something comercial, but please remember, the true meaning of Christmas, a time of love-care and sharing. Be aware of the people throughout the world who have suffered around as you enjoyed another one of ur enjoyable christmas with friends.

Give a ten second of prayer to those lost of people in Thailand, that struggled for democracy, to those that have died under the cruel attacks of Mumbais, the Africans that have died from our splendid spending, and others that might be writhing for pain as you laughed with join in this christmas.

Me?

I still haave to worry my spec

Fatal Frame

For all camera lovers, I have a story to tell. But beware; don’t proceed on looking this post if you have no-resistance to spooky stories, especially people that have great imagination and would probably have a nightmare from than night week. Worst, you might feel something strange with your dear camera that you used to hold.

The story is not that spooky, but you have been warned. If you decided to sue me, or blame me after that, I would pay no responsibility. Then again, you have been warned. But the story is not that spooky actually, unless…you’re the main character…

Sorry to say, but I didn’t have any “extraordinary” encounter yet. It’s just that, I played a series of game, and the game really spooks me. It send a cold chill to me, even with the mention of it and for your information, the game is named “FATAL FRAME.”

When firstly camera was invented, there are some people that refused to be taken picture by camera, as rumor during that time said; your soul will be trapped the moment the camera is snapped… Of course, it is a senseless rumor, but this game is designed and based on this rumor.
……
Long time ago, there was a village called the “All God’s Village”. It is said that there’s a great evil resides in the core of the village, and to suppress it, a ritual must be done to appease the evil within.

The ritual is, a twin will be caught at the sacrificial ground, and both twins have to kill each other by holding their neck, until one of them is dead. Then, the dead sister would be sacrificed, while the other survived.

And one of the twins that are chosen for the ritual are named Sae And Yae. Both of them tried to escape from the ritual, however, in the last minute, Yae was able to escaped alone with a guy called Mitsuki, leaving Sae behind before the sacrificial ceremony starts. The unlucky Sae was caught to the ceremonial site. However, during the ritual, she went berserk all of sudden, and the whole people in the village was killed, and the village since then, vanished.
It all started with this line, “we will always be together, forever…”

Two twin sisters, Mayu and Mio played in a small stream near a forest, when suddenly, Mayu, the elder sister chased a crimson butterfly that flew past her, she kept run, with her sister, Mio, chasing the Mayu which has a weird obsession on that butterfly.
They reached the All God’s Village, the village with a spooky past…and they cannot find their way out.

The twin decided to explore around the village and on one occasion, she disappeared with the dead spirit of the villagers. Since then, miss Mio had to bear the quest to find her elder sister, and save her, but with herself trapped in this mystic-village, with those vengeful spirit waiting to take her life.

And your role is too control the pitiful Mio.
(just some grumble) Mind you, this game is quite realistic in one sense, as no punch and kick will deal damage to those “beings”, nor do the girl has special power (she could be the clumsiest character I played…) , or light saber, pistol or whatever you think. And her trump card to survive is the…tata, the camera which is designed to trap the souls of the dead, called the camera Obscura. When you battle using this camera, you have to adjust your camera to the spirit (like you use a real camera, but no need to adjust brightness though), and take a picture. (Say Cheese). But, to deal tons of damage, you have to wait when the spirit approaches and SNAP just before the bloody claw touches the little Mio. (That explains why my camera skill improved, I had done a lot of practice in the game, and you might be just be…somehow, lolz). And those spirits could passed through any wall, and give you bloody chilly touch that made Mio screamed! The game difficulty was set to easy, but I have trouble to finish the game. Perhaps, I have to worry whether something would appear when I played (gasp, I don’t have a camera).

Continue to story…

By one chance, Mio was told by Mitsuki that Mayu was caught to the sacrificial ground to perform the ritual, and Mio has to rescue her before the ritual is done. She had to prevent the tragedy that lands to the twins landed on her sister. And obvious, Sae is behind all this.
When Mio finally eventually encountered Sae, she saw the past and the bloody history that mingle between them.

And, you know what’s the ending? I don’t mean to spoil the game, so any people that is playing on the game can kindly close now. ( But bet all of you would either uninterested, or scared to death, let me spoil the ending.)

Mio slay and cut ( or should say, SNAP) Sae into few pieces, and rescue Mayu from the village, live happily ever after.

If this is the ending, I would have say “ Ceh, expected,” and satisfied for finishing this horror game.

But instead, I scolded WTF for half an hour after seeing the ending.

Sae is not killed, and twins meet each other. Suddenly, the scene of the sacrifices once again appeared, the scene of Sae and Mae flashed, and Mio, uncontrollably wretched Mayu’s neck to her death…

When Mio was conscious on what she do, she cried, and suddenly something happened. The bruise on neck turned into a crimson butterfly, and Mio chased the crimson butterfly until one spot, when she saw lots of crimson butterfly there, the souls of the twins that died from the sacrifice.

In the end, Mio sat in the bench alone, with a red-butterfly like scar on her neck, and Mio’s last sentence is…

We would always be together, forever………

This is the game…fatal frame II- Crimson butterfly.
I swear that I won’t play any kind of this horror game. I have been scared to death, playing this kind of game at midnight, in the dining hall. I must have some nerve to do that, until…I stumbled on another series of the game.
Fatal Frame III – the tormented.

Rei Amakura, the main character of the story, is a reporter that reports about the strange event happened around. She suffered from her boyfriend’s death, named Yuu, and Yuu’s death was somehow related to Rei. Since then, she suffered from the trauma, and on one occasion, she knew about the research that Yuu had been doing- The Manor of Sleep.

It is said that in the Manor of Sleep, you would see your beloved dead person there. However, if you decide to chase, you could have found yourself missing in the manor forever. The location of the Manor was still a mystery, like the All God Village in 2n series.

Since then, Rei dreamt about the manor, and she saw Yuu inside the Manor, however, when she wanted to find Yuu, she was assaulted by a mysterious girl, and a scar was left on her shoulder.
Just when Rei woke up and found out that it’s just a dream, she saw the scar, expanding day by day on the shoulder.

On one dream, she stumbled a girl named Yoshida, the only survivor of a plane crash, and she keep muttering the sentence.

If only I didn’t survive. I should have never lived.

Rei decided to pay a visit to Yoshida in hospital, and the unconscious Yoshida was suddenly covered with unknown scar, and disappeared…

Meanwhile, Kei, the cousin of Mio (the girl on the crimson butterfly series) had been worrying on Mio, for she has always blamed herself since the incident. During one time, Mio landed on a deep sleep, and Kei discovered the lost Mio in his dream, in the Manor of Sleep.

What would happen to Rei? Who’s the girl that assaulted Rei? And what would happened on Mio and Kei? I had been eagerly wanted to know, but I can’t, for the game is too scary to be played alone at night, the music is spooky, the background, everything… = = On one time,I played the game and throw the joystick 15mins later, for my hand already shivered. I even resist the temptation to shout “AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!”

But believe me, once I have nothing to play to, I would enjoy scaring myself, and play this game. Cuz, I want to know the ending.

But right now, nah, give me a break.

I'm in eighties

Tell you a tale.

The JK you know actually is a teen comed from the eighties, and he travelled through time to the year of 2008.

Sounds weird?

Nah, if you approached the specimen called JK, you might wondered, " is he a time-traveller".

Of course, time travel is still absurd. Einstein merely invented the theory, and no scientists can apply his theory till now.

So?

My point is, JK was born on a wrong time, cuz he had a belief that the young generation didn't possess. Or, you could say, he's an outdated-ass or nerd.

Dun believe?

This is sth that I discovered from Mid- Valley.

1. I don't have a fashion sense compared to others. While others geared out with their decent costumes, I wore my broken versace T-shirt, cuz other T-shirts are dirty, and my slippers, hmm... is the same slipper I wore when I worked in restaurant.

Hyde: Btw, I am damn broke with 20 bucks left in my pocket. I was worried whether I could survive after a Kara-oke and a sushi session, ppl said, I'm in sort of love dilemma. And wherever I was near of a christmas gift, birds can be heard chit-chatted again.

( shall we continue ? )

2. I had a very bad fashion sense. My hair cannot be unattended, and I can never come out with the stylish hairstyle

3. I had a very very bad fashion sense.

(Why are U repeating the sth thing over again, jekyll asked)

I hated to loiter around the shopping outlet, seeing the different yet same clothing to me, enjoy touching something over hundred, and I knew that I can't buy it.

4. My slogan, teenager nowadays

Somehow, it became my favorite line nowadays.

5. Lamentation of teen nowadays

The tendency of me to wonder, why people can emo over small thing ( no offence ), why people just hate to walk an extra mile, why people just can't be rational more a little bit.

6. I am becoming a wet blanket

Well, miscommunication with 21 century people can lead me to that.

Well, that's all.

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Regards Jekyll

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For people that doesn't wish to get mad, or still want to continue befriend with me, pls kindly ignored the sentences below. This is wat hyde said, not the good jekyll

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(It is deleted by the blog author, knowing the consequences of his emo-wave discharge)

REGARDS.
HYDE

An event to remember

People nowadays are labeled as cold-blooded and without courtesy, and sorry to say that I began to become one of them.

13/12/2008 time : 8.10

I and a tired bunch of friends just finnished from a shopping trip. While others had to stand all their way to shah alam in the KTM, I was glad for able to secure one seat to myself. Few minutes later, an elder Malay aunty stand beside me. She looked me with a pair of eye, like asking me to give a seat to her.

I had an urge to leave my seat. But I hesitated. Because, I suddenly remembered a petty event that happened to me months ago.

I and my friend secured a seat in the congested Rapid KL. My friend asked me to give the seat to the two old aunt in front of me. I agreed, but when I asked the old woman to sit on my place, it turns out that the old aunt was a young lady, and the next second, my friend laughed at my naiveness.

I remembered the event. and I refused to budge from my seat. She looked at me again, with the same pair of eye that looked me just now, and I am still hesitated.

Soon, a Malay girl scolded me for not giving the old aunt a seat. I apologized and stand out, but before that, I was replied "tak payah" because a guy already stand up before I do. And for the rest of the 30 minute KTM trip, I covered my face in emberassment, regretting my own action.

Lesson 1. Never hesitated to offer kindness and help to people, even though ur help was rejected , fooled or labeled unnecessary.

Lesson 2. Never played on people kindness, u might be doing a greater evil for creating a people that would wary twice before offering a helping hand.

Regards
A shameful Jekyll

the nature of power

What is people’s true nature?

In this world, there are three things that can be classified as power- money, fame, and of course, pure violence. People bowed and relented to power, and the powerful ones continue to rule. And if you wondered why these 3 things, I say- it all thanks to evolution of people.

People, in nature, hate of being hit, scared of act of violence. They bow to those there are stronger to them, and strong rules the weak. These happens during those ancient times or Paleolithic or even older. This is what we call “survival the fittest.”

However, it is quick for people to realize that “the more the better”. No matter how strong you are, I doubt you will survive if ten persons take you on (unless you are superman, and superman doesn’t exist). Soon people realize that more amounts mean more protection, and of course more power. And that’s why they started to categorize themselves into communities, and even some of them build countries and civilization as we knew today.

However, people do not always agree to each other, and more people mean more disagreement. It is also a fact that most people need guidance (that, I presume is the reason of existence of religion) and also there are people, which their nature is to rule. Soon enough, leader existed to represent the community, or rather to rule people which nature is to be ruled. A leader, or a ruler needs support of a large people, and these is when fame comes to play. A leader is the one that leads people to prosperity, however throughout history; it seems that the thing leader do is to bring more people under his leadership, for it means more power of violence. And the “way” is no other than act of violence, and that’s why war existed.

Soon, power changes a new form, thanks to capitalism, when money is the important thing of survival. More money means a magical lamp that granted you wish-for a better luxurious life, or a better protection. So theoretically, people with more money can have more people work with him. And similarly, those people use money to gain more fame, and thus, gain more power of violence.

Perhaps these are what different people and animals. Animal rules by the law- survival fittest. The strong rules the weak, and that’s all and luckily in the animal kingdom, the weak is always more than the strong, so nothing has happened and changed much. However, when it comes to people, more factors seem to come in play.

The question comes, among these three things- money, fame, and power of violence, which one gains an edge? The answer seems to be obvious, but the true answer is no, as three of them all origin from the same root and factor- human fear of violence.

For example, if you are almost died without food and suddenly some people come out with some money to help you, in exchange that you will do what he says. I think you will agree within a sec. Another example, if you are asked by the PM to do something, I doubt you will dare to say no (unless it is an order to suicide). And also another example, king or Bill gates, if they are under custody of those Taliban terrorists, I doubt Bill Gates will say no when the terrorists asked for a billion for their monthly pocket money.

And if you ask me, what is the use of religion? Morality? and all those thing that were taught in Moral education since we are small. However, for me, moral is something that is followed by the ruled people (or the weak), and among the ruler (or the strong) care of things, moral is not really an important factor .If there is something called “bertolak ansur”, you won’t see politician racking their head, using whatever method to get a higher position. If there is something called “bertanggungjawab”, why the military government in Thailand still existed. If there is something called “aman damai”, why there is still war and terrorists act among leader? And if there is something called “kasih saying”, why wars existed since ancient times.

How to change, that, I don’t know.

And that concludes part of my views- the dark nature of human.

Regards
Hyde

lies and excuse

What is happening to this world?

To sum up, the world I see now can be summarized into these few things.

Economy crisis, merciless massacre, nonsensical dogma, and lastly some immature comments that seems to make Malaysia a perfect place to gossip, (AND to laugh at).

Those events portray the true nature, the dark side and the weakness of us as a human being.

LIES AND EXCUSE. They are the best thing in this world. It conceals your weakness and justifies your wrongdoings. And the pithiest are the people started to believe, and rather, choose to believe excuse as their thinking.

The excuse can be many- religion, races, countries, anything. Aim does not justify mean. However, in these cases-from Mumbai, Taliban, or the old 911, it seems that “EXCUSE does not justify mean,” suits the situation better. To those 911 terrorists, what can you accomplish to your god by ruining the economy of this world, to those Mumbai Muslim terrorists, are you helping those Muslimim in India by having a massacre in Mumbai. To Israelist , why you say you’re fighting for religion (be it Judaism or Christian) by killing Palestinian when there is such thing as “THOU SHALL NOT KILL”.

Those holy aims are just excuses, and those terrorists are the ones that are pitiful enough to believe those lies as their true calling. For those people that vowed for “fighting for religion, races, community, and etc, please see whether you are doing 1% of what you fight. Killing people is not the way to restore peace. Insulting people is not the way to restore unity, and quarreling is definitely not a way to change the country to a better place, if you ask me. For those hypocrites in this world that vowed to fight for their own excuse, you are just a coward that has no courage to face the truth.

And you might ask, if all those things like religion and race are just a excuse, what’s their point of doing all those?

Answer, there are always a few people that like to cause destruction in this world, enjoying at people’s pain, and also some people just hate to lose, in everything. And when those destructive nature people are devilishly clever, they distribute their lies around, “inspiring people” to their own destructive nature, and together they bring destruction, under religion or races.

To me, they are just a bunch of people that trapped in their own delusion, lies is their way of survive, and excuses as their energy to continue in their wrongdoings.

Perhaps, the villains in Hollywood movie such as the clown in Dark Knight are slightly better than those terrorist in real world. Why? Because they knew they kill because they want to kill.

They are evil, but at least, they are not hypocrite.

Regards

Hyde

P.S.Jekyll is on a deep sleep after days of loitering, now hyde will be taking over for a while

A crazy dream

Lately, I had been fermenting on a more frequent basis in my home, and all I do is none other than game...sleep...eat...and sleep. The excess amount of free time has made me thinking a lot, but thinking is the last thing that I should do. Who knows I maybe land on another inferiority-complex streak, or thinking about gibberish that may never be achieved in life.

And yesterday I landed on another thinking streak again, and I just found out the best (yet craziest way) to spend this holiday.

That's it - Cycling along the WHOLE malaysia. A knapsack, a tent and a bike will do will be my trusty tool. I will drive across kedah, then take a turn to terengganu, down to johor, drop by to melaka and back to ipoh. Hundred bucks will be enough for my food. As for accomodation, sleeping in a tent will be more than enough.

BUt will my parent agree with it, will my bike able to withstand me cycling for over a week, will I survive from those thug and thieves that has been ruling around the dark area around malaysia and lastly, do I had enough time and $ to begin with.

It's just a fantasy. But who knows, i might give it a try before I fly to US

regards
Hyde

A cocoon's dream

Frankly, I hate long holiday, not just because it makes me fermenting in home, but also making me feeling aimless in these few ten days.

However, thanks to these "fermenting period" that I am able to think about myself, my views and perspective to people, and to this world.

And I realized-how selfish I can be sometimes, how ignorant I can be MOST of the times, how hypocrite can I sometimes and how coward I can be sometimes.

Life can be a cocoon. The cacoon was formed by it to protect against disaster it faced, and since then, it has been staying inside the cocoon.

It is comfortable to lie inside the cocoon, life could be easier if I stayed inside this cocoon, everything that comes to me, this coccon will always be the shield for everything.

But if that so, it would always remained as a cocoon forever. It dreamed of becoming a butterfly before, but the cocoon shield won't be there for him anymore...

Despite how fragile the cocoon might be, it is stupid enough to think that the cocoon can shield out evryhting. Perhaps, it knows that the cocoon can be easily destroyed by a single gust of wind, and perhaps there are many perhaps...but in the end, the wings are still lied inside the cocoon, waiting to be rotten as times goes by

And the butterfly would always remained as the cocoon's dream

Regards
Jekyll..

Sick...

It is said that there's a weird concept "idiot people never get sick". However, it seems that it's not true at all, for a big idiot like me has undergone the worst days ever...selsema, fever, and lastly, diarrehea??

Thank god I'm recovered, (must be the natural immunue system for idiot has started working ), but seriously, it's a horrible few days I have...

And somehow, it's a weird experience to begin with...

Few days ago...
I was having a serious selsema, therefore I am still awake even after 3 p.m..I can only fall asleep after repeating times of yawning (and blurred vision). However, Selsema has been a good justification for me to stay overnight (to play games...).

This situation has gone over for few days, and soon I realized that I have fever after realizing my whole body started to shiver (thanks to the Cyber Cafe air-con... ).

I decided to go back to my home to rest, only to find out the sky started to rain...

I slept for the next few hours and woked up at 12 midnight, and thank god, fever has subsided. However, my stomach was completely empty ( or to say, I have a habit of eating supper), I ravaged through my fridge to find some food.

I find a chinese pau, and it smells...weird. I convinced myself that it's just my own imagination, must be I'm being over-sensitive or sth...

Finally the pau was ready, I ate it, and tomorrow, I have to pay several visit to toilet while working, with my stomach crying for pain....

Haywired post

First of all, let's grieve on my this semester cgpa

zzzzzzz

And now, a new declaration to get myself psyched up

bla...bla...bla...bla

Expect some changes from me next semester

Regards
Hyde

P.S.- Weak CGPA is not everything, look at Benson, Simon Cowell, Bill Gates, Warren Buffet. They are all uni drop out. All of them ended to be the one of the most successful person in this world. In the end, when it comes to work, CGPA doesn't matter. Your charismatic and confidence, with a sense of taking risk is the one that matters

Regards
Jekyll


(P.S.) P.S.- They are different, you don't have the confidence and charisma of them, nor do you have the qualities to be a 2nd warren buffet either. So, the only thing u can do is raise ur CGPA, (even though the fact that CGPA only covers 10% of employee rate) and considered urself successful when u will be working with those Rich "Uni dropout boss". Taking their case as an excuse of slacking in CGPA is only a lame excuse.

But to Mr. Jekyll, aim for being someonee different, thats your aim from small. Once u have regain the confidence u lost, and after you kick off those sucks habits u have, let's embark to the trip to change the world.

Regards
Hyde

A gracious loser- Mc Cain

I know, I know, general election in US has already over, but please, juz one post...

When people found that Obama presidential speech is good, I personally think that Mc Cain concession speech is not bad either. Not many people in this world can still be calm and congratulate his own opponent, but he can...he can.

OK, this is the text i passed thru while spending my meal in SA in pak li kopitiam

Text of McCain's concession speech

By The Associated Press – Nov 4, 2008

Text of Republican John McCain's concession speech Tuesday in Phoenix, as transcribed by CQ Transcriptions.

___

MCCAIN: Thank you. Thank you, my friends. Thank you for coming here on this beautiful Arizona evening.

My friends, we have — we have come to the end of a long journey. The American people have spoken, and they have spoken clearly.

A little while ago, I had the honor of calling Senator Barack Obama to congratulate him.

(BOOING)

Please.

To congratulate him on being elected the next president of the country that we both love.

In a contest as long and difficult as this campaign has been, his success alone commands my respect for his ability and perseverance. But that he managed to do so by inspiring the hopes of so many millions of Americans who had once wrongly believed that they had little at stake or little influence in the election of an American president is something I deeply admire and commend him for achieving.

This is an historic election, and I recognize the special significance it has for African-Americans and for the special pride that must be theirs tonight.

I've always believed that America offers opportunities to all who have the industry and will to seize it. Senator Obama believes that, too.

But we both recognize that, though we have come a long way from the old injustices that once stained our nation's reputation and denied some Americans the full blessings of American citizenship, the memory of them still had the power to wound.

A century ago, President Theodore Roosevelt's invitation of Booker T. Washington to dine at the White House was taken as an outrage in many quarters.

America today is a world away from the cruel and frightful bigotry of that time. There is no better evidence of this than the election of an African-American to the presidency of the United States.

Let there be no reason now ... Let there be no reason now for any American to fail to cherish their citizenship in this, the greatest nation on Earth.

Senator Obama has achieved a great thing for himself and for his country. I applaud him for it, and offer him my sincere sympathy that his beloved grandmother did not live to see this day. Though our faith assures us she is at rest in the presence of her creator and so very proud of the good man she helped raise.

Senator Obama and I have had and argued our differences, and he has prevailed. No doubt many of those differences remain.

These are difficult times for our country. And I pledge to him tonight to do all in my power to help him lead us through the many challenges we face.

I urge all Americans ... I urge all Americans who supported me to join me in not just congratulating him, but offering our next president our good will and earnest effort to find ways to come together to find the necessary compromises to bridge our differences and help restore our prosperity, defend our security in a dangerous world, and leave our children and grandchildren a stronger, better country than we inherited.

Whatever our differences, we are fellow Americans. And please believe me when I say no association has ever meant more to me than that.

It is natural. It's natural, tonight, to feel some disappointment. But tomorrow, we must move beyond it and work together to get our country moving again.

We fought — we fought as hard as we could. And though we feel short, the failure is mine, not yours.

AUDIENCE: No!

MCCAIN: I am so...

AUDIENCE: (CHANTING)

MCCAIN: I am so deeply grateful to all of you for the great honor of your support and for all you have done for me. I wish the outcome had been different, my friends.

AUDIENCE MEMBER: We do, too (OFF-MIKE)

MCCAIN: The road was a difficult one from the outset, but your support and friendship never wavered. I cannot adequately express how deeply indebted I am to you.

I'm especially grateful to my wife, Cindy, my children, my dear mother ... my dear mother and all my family, and to the many old and dear friends who have stood by my side through the many ups and downs of this long campaign.

I have always been a fortunate man, and never more so for the love and encouragement you have given me.

You know, campaigns are often harder on a candidate's family than on the candidate, and that's been true in this campaign.

All I can offer in compensation is my love and gratitude and the promise of more peaceful years ahead.

I am also — I am also, of course, very thankful to Governor Sarah Palin, one of the best campaigners I've ever seen ... one of the best campaigners I have ever seen, and an impressive new voice in our party for reform and the principles that have always been our greatest strength ... her husband Todd and their five beautiful children ... for their tireless dedication to our cause, and the courage and grace they showed in the rough and tumble of a presidential campaign.

We can all look forward with great interest to her future service to Alaska, the Republican Party and our country.

To all my campaign comrades, from Rick Davis and Steve Schmidt and Mark Salter, to every last volunteer who fought so hard and valiantly, month after month, in what at times seemed to be the most challenged campaign in modern times, thank you so much. A lost election will never mean more to me than the privilege of your faith and friendship.

I don't know — I don't know what more we could have done to try to win this election. I'll leave that to others to determine. Every candidate makes mistakes, and I'm sure I made my share of them. But I won't spend a moment of the future regretting what might have been.

This campaign was and will remain the great honor of my life, and my heart is filled with nothing but gratitude for the experience and to the American people for giving me a fair hearing before deciding that Senator Obama and my old friend Senator Joe Biden should have the honor of leading us for the next four years.

(BOOING)

Please. Please.

I would not — I would not be an American worthy of the name should I regret a fate that has allowed me the extraordinary privilege of serving this country for a half a century.

Today, I was a candidate for the highest office in the country I love so much. And tonight, I remain her servant. That is blessing enough for anyone, and I thank the people of Arizona for it.

AUDIENCE: USA. USA. USA. USA.

MCCAIN: Tonight — tonight, more than any night, I hold in my heart nothing but love for this country and for all its citizens, whether they supported me or Senator Obama — whether they supported me or Senator Obama.

I wish Godspeed to the man who was my former opponent and will be my president. And I call on all Americans, as I have often in this campaign, to not despair of our present difficulties, but to believe, always, in the promise and greatness of America, because nothing is inevitable here.

Americans never quit. We never surrender.

We never hide from history. We make history.

Thank you, and God bless you, and God bless America. Thank you all very much.

U application

Paperwork again...

Seriously, I had a very BAD experience with paperwork, that's y I keep procrastinating until the last minute, especially dossier......but the last minute is arrived, and I had to do my dossier after all...

Have to go back to my school everyday to find the MIA headmaster (until the guard get familiar with me), but seriously, my school really changed a lot, a new signboard, a new office for lecturers, new canteen, and..and.. A NEW BASKETBALL COURT (in the place student used to have their *perhimpunan* in front)... maybe this new headmaster (which happened to be a Monash U graduate) is really something...

BUT THAT CANNOT EXPLAIN WHY HE IS MIA ALL THE TIME

After the dossier is done, I enjoyed the short-lived happiness (for around 2 hours) and notice the bigger problem - U application

.I had a few things in mind

1. Should I send the application online or paper?
-Sending application online is secure, unlike post via mail which poses a certain risk. (though the percentage of accident is quite low, there's a chance my application would somehow flew away to the great atlantic ocean in the midst of travelling to US, or worse, the plane might get attacked by terrorists in the way... ==(am I thinking too much))

Then application through online should be safe, but the problem is credit card..

OMG, i am just 18( but my account is still labeled as kid) , and I don't think I would go through all process to make an account, applying a credit card, and bla..bla.. I could have asked my cousin (which happened to be the poorest engineer ever) to borrow his card, but the fee is 150 USD (which can be 600 bucks, not to mention kian hui asked for my help, and the fee could reached 250USD, which means thousand buck

faint..

And I understand "how easy" to get the 150usd from jpa...

2. SAT and TOEFL
All of sudden, purdue kicks away mechanical engineer, all of sudden, I found out that the U i applied is worse, all of sudden...

I REALIZED I HAD TO RESEND THOSE SCORES...

and means another few ten bucks USD...

3.Essays
I hate essay, esp essay that asked "why u choose us", "what can we offer", bla bla bla , and all those essays that asked "tell urself more" when I have no clue what to write.

Actually those essays can be easily answered, but the answer will guarantee u a 100% disqualification...

Why choose our university
Because MIT doesn't accept me, and ur U is in Jpa list lor

What can we offer to help u bla...
engineer course la, wat else,?

Tell urself more
malaysian, currently study in INTEC, passed ur University minimum requirement, wat else u want to know? My girlfren preference?

Of course these type of crap will get u nowhere, but I wonder sometimes, why they bother asking people to praise their own University..

grrrr....

Need to think abt the essay later....

Change- Barack Obama

The latest president of US -Barack Obama...

To tell the truth, I was not at least a little bit interested at all at first, 8 years ago, when Bush was chosen, the world doesn't grow better, instead, America successfully make lots of countries his greatest enemies. Believe me, I wouldn't hate US more if Bush isn't the president of US.

And ironically, I was offered to study overseas in US...

I don't have much hope for this US president. Despite of the facts that the new US president is a black, despite of the fact that he is born in Kenya, studied in Indonesia for 4 years, despite of the overwhelming victory of Obama (he already declared won even before the elcetion is finnished...), and despite.....

Until yesterday, something in the news stunned me for a bit...
Kenya declared an official holiday because Obama has chosen as president...
Many countries in Africa are celebrating Obama victory...
Leader of Iran, which is supposed to be a great enemy for US, congratulated Obama for his victory...
Other happy reactions can be seen around the world, from Europe country like France to 3rd world country like Africa...

And even Senator Mc. Cain wished him good luck...

Never in this world that a leader in US is lauded by lots of people around his country...

Barack Obama, in eyes of American and also people in this world, is seen as the salvation of the current predicament- ecconomy crisis, endless military wars, etc. He should have realized that he is shouldering the hope of all people into him. The hope for a change, the hope for a better world...He is no longer just a president of US, he is greater than that...
Quoted from a politic analysis " Mc Cain is the best candidates that Republican can offer, however, the desire for change in US citizens is great... ...In other words, Mc Cain has already lost from the start....... We can say, in this election, Obama Won, not Mc Cain lose .

( Huhh?, is Obama really that charismatic)

And today I accidentally stumbled on Chen Chow's blog and I read Obama's presidential speech
and result is
.........
.........
......... *speechless, I am awed*

below is a copy from this website http://www.theroot.com/id/48761- Obama presidential speech...
................................................................................................

Hello, Chicago.If there is anyone out there who still doubts that America is a place where all things are possible, who still wonders if the dream of our founders is alive in our time, who still questions the power of our democracy, tonight is your answer.

It's the answer told by lines that stretched around schools and churches in numbers this nation has never seen, by people who waited three hours and four hours, many for the first time in their lives, because they believed that this time must be different, that their voices could be that difference.It's the answer spoken by young and old, rich and poor, Democrat and Republican, black, white, Hispanic, Asian, Native American, gay, straight, disabled and not disabled.

Americans who sent a message to the world that we have never been just a collection of individuals or a collection of red states and blue states.We are, and always will be, the United States of America.

It's the answer that led those who've been told for so long by so many to be cynical and fearful and doubtful about what we can achieve to put their hands on the arc of history and bend it once more toward the hope of a better day.It's been a long time coming, but tonight, because of what we did on this date in this election at this defining moment change has come to America.

A little bit earlier this evening, I received an extraordinarily gracious call from Sen. McCain.Sen. McCain fought long and hard in this campaign. And he's fought even longer and harder for the country that he loves. He has endured sacrifices for America that most of us cannot begin to imagine. We are better off for the service rendered by this brave and selfless leader.I congratulate him; I congratulate Gov. Palin for all that they've achieved. And I look forward to working with them to renew this nation's promise in the months ahead.

I want to thank my partner in this journey, a man who campaigned from his heart, and spoke for the men and women he grew up with on the streets of Scranton and rode with on the train home to Delaware, the vice president-elect of the United States, Joe Biden.

And I would not be standing here tonight without the unyielding support of my best friend for the last 16 years the rock of our family, the love of my life, the nation's next first lady Michelle Obama.Sasha and Malia I love you both more than you can imagine. And you have earned the new puppy that's coming with us to the new White House.And while she's no longer with us, I know my grandmother's watching, along with the family that made me who I am. I miss them tonight. I know that my debt to them is beyond measure.To my sister Maya, my sister Alma, all my other brothers and sisters, thank you so much for all the support that you've given me.

I am grateful to them.And to my campaign manager, David Plouffe, the unsung hero of this campaign, who built the best -- the best political campaign, I think, in the history of the United States of America.To my chief strategist David Axelrod who's been a partner with me every step of the way.To the best campaign team ever assembled in the history of politics you made this happen, and I am forever grateful for what you've sacrificed to get it done.But above all, I will never forget who this victory truly belongs to. It belongs to you. It belongs to you.

I was never the likeliest candidate for this office. We didn't start with much money or many endorsements. Our campaign was not hatched in the halls of Washington. It began in the backyards of Des Moines and the living rooms of Concord and the front porches of Charleston. It was built by working men and women who dug into what little savings they had to give $5 and $10 and $20 to the cause.

It grew strength from the young people who rejected the myth of their generation's apathy who left their homes and their families for jobs that offered little pay and less sleep.It drew strength from the not-so-young people who braved the bitter cold and scorching heat to knock on doors of perfect strangers, and from the millions of Americans who volunteered and organized and proved that more than two centuries later a government of the people, by the people, and for the people has not perished from the Earth.This is your victory.And I know you didn't do this just to win an election. And I know you didn't do it for me.You did it because you understand the enormity of the task that lies ahead.

For even as we celebrate tonight, we know the challenges that tomorrow will bring are the greatest of our lifetime -- two wars, a planet in peril, the worst financial crisis in a century.Even as we stand here tonight, we know there are brave Americans waking up in the deserts of Iraq and the mountains of Afghanistan to risk their lives for us.There are mothers and fathers who will lie awake after the children fall asleep and wonder how they'll make the mortgage or pay their doctors' bills or save enough for their child's college education.There's new energy to harness, new jobs to be created, new schools to build, and threats to meet, alliances to repair.

The road ahead will be long. Our climb will be steep. We may not get there in one year or even in one term. But, America, I have never been more hopeful than I am tonight that we will get there.I promise you, we as a people will get there.There will be setbacks and false starts. There are many who won't agree with every decision or policy I make as president. And we know the government can't solve every problem.But I will always be honest with you about the challenges we face. I will listen to you, especially when we disagree.

And, above all, I will ask you to join in the work of remaking this nation, the only way it's been done in America for 221 years -- block by block, brick by brick, calloused hand by calloused hand.What began 21 months ago in the depths of winter cannot end on this autumn night.This victory alone is not the change we seek. It is only the chance for us to make that change. And that cannot happen if we go back to the way things were.It can't happen without you, without a new spirit of service, a new spirit of sacrifice.

So let us summon a new spirit of patriotism, of responsibility, where each of us resolves to pitch in and work harder and look after not only ourselves but each other.Let us remember that, if this financial crisis taught us anything, it's that we cannot have a thriving Wall Street while Main Street suffers.

In this country, we rise or fall as one nation, as one people. Let's resist the temptation to fall back on the same partisanship and pettiness and immaturity that has poisoned our politics for so long.Let's remember that it was a man from this state who first carried the banner of the Republican Party to the White House, a party founded on the values of self-reliance and individual liberty and national unity.This victory alone is not the change we seek. It is only the chance for us to make that change. And that cannot happen if we go back to the way things were.It can't happen without you, without a new spirit of service, a new spirit of sacrifice.

So let us summon a new spirit of patriotism, of responsibility, where each of us resolves to pitch in and work harder and look after not only ourselves but each other.Let us remember that, if this financial crisis taught us anything, it's that we cannot have a thriving Wall Street while Main Street suffers.In this country, we rise or fall as one nation, as one people. Let's resist the temptation to fall back on the same partisanship and pettiness and immaturity that has poisoned our politics for so long.Let's remember that it was a man from this state who first carried the banner of the Republican Party to the White House, a party founded on the values of self-reliance and individual liberty and national unity.

Those are values that we all share. And while the Democratic Party has won a great victory tonight, we do so with a measure of humility and determination to heal the divides that have held back our progress.As Lincoln said to a nation far more divided than ours, we are not enemies but friends.

Though passion may have strained, it must not break our bonds of affection.And to those Americans whose support I have yet to earn, I may not have won your vote tonight, but I hear your voices. I need your help. And I will be your president, too.And to all those watching tonight from beyond our shores, from parliaments and palaces, to those who are huddled around radios in the forgotten corners of the world, our stories are singular, but our destiny is shared, and a new dawn of American leadership is at hand.

To those -- to those who would tear the world down: We will defeat you. To those who seek peace and security: We support you. And to all those who have wondered if America's beacon still burns as bright: Tonight we proved once more that the true strength of our nation comes not from the might of our arms or the scale of our wealth, but from the enduring power of our ideals: democracy, liberty, opportunity and unyielding hope.That's the true genius of America: that America can change. Our union can be perfected. What we've already achieved gives us hope for what we can and must achieve tomorrow.

This election had many firsts and many stories that will be told for generations. But one that's on my mind tonight's about a woman who cast her ballot in Atlanta. She's a lot like the millions of others who stood in line to make their voice heard in this election except for one thing: Ann Nixon Cooper is 106 years old.

She was born just a generation past slavery; a time when there were no cars on the road or planes in the sky; when someone like her couldn't vote for two reasons -- because she was a woman and because of the color of her skin.And tonight, I think about all that she's seen throughout her century in America -- the heartache and the hope; the struggle and the progress; the times we were told that we can't, and the people who pressed on with that American creed:

Yes we can.At a time when women's voices were silenced and their hopes dismissed, she lived to see them stand up and speak out and reach for the ballot. Yes we can.When there was despair in the dust bowl and depression across the land, she saw a nation conquer fear itself with a New Deal, new jobs, a new sense of common purpose. Yes we can.

When the bombs fell on our harbor and tyranny threatened the world, she was there to witness a generation rise to greatness and a democracy was saved. Yes we can.She was there for the buses in Montgomery, the hoses in Birmingham, a bridge in Selma, and a preacher from Atlanta who told a people that "We Shall Overcome." Yes we can.

A man touched down on the moon, a wall came down in Berlin, a world was connected by our own science and imagination.And this year, in this election, she touched her finger to a screen, and cast her vote, because after 106 years in America, through the best of times and the darkest of hours, she knows how America can change.Yes we can.America, we have come so far.

We have seen so much. But there is so much more to do. So tonight, let us ask ourselves -- if our children should live to see the next century; if my daughters should be so lucky to live as long as Ann Nixon Cooper, what change will they see? What progress will we have made?This is our chance to answer that call. This is our moment.This is our time, to put our people back to work and open doors of opportunity for our kids; to restore prosperity and promote the cause of peace; to reclaim the American dream and reaffirm that fundamental truth, that, out of many, we are one; that while we breathe, we hope.

And where we are met with cynicism and doubts and those who tell us that we can't, we will respond with that timeless creed that sums up the spirit of a people: Yes, we can.Thank you. God bless you. And may God bless the United States of America.

Tagged? Watever

Am I tagged? Lol, juz do it.

Rules & Regulations:- do not copy answers- the tag questions must be 100% the same- tag people before doing tag I tag:

1.CJ
2.Yuin Yi
3.Beng San
4.Liz
5.Wei Young
6.Chau Kee
7.Hafidz
8.FY
9.Kian Hui



How do you know 1 (CJ)?
The same classmate in first semester. I must say it's a (fateful, unlucky, best ???) encounter ever...

What would you do if you never meet 2 (Yuin Yi)?
Less one friend and less one girl that would laugh at my carelessness, LOL.

What would you do if 3 (Beng San) and 4 (Liz) dated you?

3: Sth must be wrong, beng san filed an anti-social motion, unless he turned gay...(LOL)
4: Hmm..., maybe debate all the way or speechless all the way (depends which personality I am)

Would 5 (Wei Young) and 6(Chau Kee) make a good couple?
They supposed to be enemies, if you had followed us to Sungei Wang, u shud know...

Do you think 7 (Hafidz) is attractive?
Never Ever=.=

Tell me something about 9 (Kian Hui).
A skeleton that needs more fat instead of calculus, a fren that would never care of you but his own profit and a noob that pretends top be pro (=p)

What's 1 (CJ) favourite past time?
Emo lo, wat else?

What language does 2 (Yuin Yi) speak?
English, Malay, Mandarin, Cantonese... (Hokkien got or not?)

Who is 3 (Beng San) going out with?
No idea, he praticed anti-social policy lately...

How old is 4 (Liz)?
19 kua...(seriously?)

When was the last time you talked to 5 (Wei Young)?
The Day before I left INTEC...(but wei young would rather talk to someone else like...(CENSORED))

Who is 6 (Chau Kee) favourite singer?
Dunno, Jay chou maybe...

Would you date 7 (Hafidz)?
Never ever =.= (why the same response?)

Is 8 (FY) single?
That's what I know. But I and ** are working to make her unavailable (Dun misunderstood, I'm not in the game anymore)

What is 9 (Kian Hui) last name?
Yeoh

Would you consider in a relationship with 1 (CJ)?
Ok, I might still single, but I'll never be gay (=.=)

Which school does 2 (Yuin Yi) go to?
INTEC.. before was hmm..., maybe some school in Melaka (paiseh, three sem classmate ald also dunno)

What do you like about 3 (Beng San)?
Willingness to stand out and be the leader, has the courage to receive blame when a team falls into trouble (seriously, if you've be less casanovic this sem, you could be better...)

STPM

My friends are going to have STPM soon enough, bet they will be crammed by books by the time I go back and helluva all over.

People used to say STPM was one of the hardest test in the world, but like SPM and PMR, the passing rate and the percentage of student getting A are increasing.

Examples, 10 years ago, there will be less than 10000 students scoring a full A, but now?

At least 100times of the amount...Why?

Is the test going easier, or the students in Malaysia getting smarter

This is what I found out on internet( a joke stumbled by accident about my question above)

> > Are students getting smarter? Or are STPM questions getting easier?
> >
> > Let me put things in their proper perspective.
> >
> > During your grandfather's time, they would ask exam questions like:
> >
> > In what year did Parameswara founded the kingdom of Melaka?
> >
> > The correct answer was "1402", and they found that only 10% of the
> > students
> > managed to answer the question correctly. This didn't go down too well
> > with
> > the authorities, because the objective of the exams was to pass people.
> >
> > I mean, what's the point of having exams if people fail?
> >
> > So later, they found another way to ask the same question:
> >
> > Parameswara founded the kingdomof Melakain the year:
> > (a) 2001
> > (b) 2004
> > (c) 1986
> > (d) 1975
> > (e) 1402
> > Tick the correct answer.
> >
> > The results were better in that 20% of the students passed. But it was
> > still not good enough, so the authorities tried a different tact a few
> > years later.
> >
> > Parameswara founded the kingdom of Melaka in the year1402. True or
> > false?
> >
> > Well, half of the students guessed "True" and the other half guessed
> > "False". Fully 50% passed. The results were getting pretty acceptable by
> > now.
> >
> > Most other countries would be satisfied with a 50% passing rate, but not
> > us. We are a better country, because we are a boleh country.The
> > authorities
> > then cracked their heads and then came out with this one:
> >
> > Read the following sentence carefully.
> > "Parameswara, the cousin of Proton-Iswara, founded the kingdomof Melaka
> > in
> > the year 1402."
> > Underline the name of the person who founded Melaka.
> >
> > 60% underlined "Parameswara", 30% underlined "Proton-Iswara" and 10%
> > underlined "1402". Hooiyoh......60% managed to pass! So krever!
> >
> > But for some reason, the authorities were still not contented.
> > So last year, they came out with this gem:
> >
> > One day in the year 1402, Parameswara founded the kingdomof Melaka.
> > Then
> > he went home to have dinner. What did he eat?
> >
> > 13% handed in blank answers, 57% wrote "Maggi Mee", and 10% wrote
> > "Kentucky
> > Fried Chicken", and 20% wrote "Tree bark".
> > The official answer was "Food" of course!
> > After the marking was over, it was found that 87% of the students had
> > passed.
> > 87%............now that's pretty impressive!
> >
> > So it's true. The students are indeed getting smarter.
> >
> >

(I didn't write this thing...)

Btw, good luck for all my STPM friends. Sorry for not able to study with you guys, but... good luck

I would be wishing all of you luck from far,

Regards
Jekyll

Multiple personality

How do you regard existence? Do you regard a person as a sole existence? Living beings as an existence, or the whole universe as an existence on itself.

It is naive to think that there's an existence in you only. For every people, there is always an another he or she that hide in the darkness, that you'll never know, that you wished not to know.

Yet they existed, and it existed within you.

Welcome...to the realm of multiple personality

Regards
Hyde...

^.^ and =.=

To all my blog readers (mostly just a few) such as Cj, Liz, and etc
(Though all of them must be poking in their bio test)

My test is OVER!!! and it also shows that

STRESS TIME for Bio students

Suffer now, wakakaka, like I used to suffer two days ago

But I flunked calculus
flunked..
flunked..
flunked..


(The blogger has gone haywire and may not response for some time...)

Good luck for all of you (though I doubt you'll recieve it) and get another 4 pointers for the subject!

Dun be like me that flunked calculus..

flunked..
flunked..
flunked..

(Haywire and explosion)

Juz to crap

Today, I've eaten something that shouldn't be.

It's sweet, but the consequences is serious.

It crumbled my resolution easily, after a resolution that I had fortified for months

But sorry that I can't resist the sweetness

And at the same time

forgetting the bitterness that I had sustained before

sigh...

(Juz a post of grumble. I wonder whether it make sense to you)

Can I survive before the spring arrives?

"When winter comes, it indicates that spring would come soon,"

But can I survive before the spring arrives, or I will be dead frozen before I can see the blooming flower of spring...

Empirical report , CTU assignment, dossier, final exams are coming here, and before even the wars commerce, I had no more energy to face those horrible predicament.

Would I be the same person again, trapped in an evil circle of regretting--- regret-forget-play-then regret-forget-play--

The circles continue.

I could have give a damn shit of those final exams, leave those assignments for others, and in the end opt all the subjects that I have failed miserably...

I could have do that...everyone could have do that...But I know, I would be completely insane if I had done this... Maybe, I'm crazy.

There's always a voice beside me that tell me to give those stuff a damn shit, and there's always another voice that tell me to face all those predicament. There's a voice that tell me spring is ahead, and another voice that tell me "Freak, there's a big avalanche in front of you." There's a voice that tell me that I had comrades to help, and there's always another voice that tell me "You're alone, and success is no where by clinging on someone else."

Oh god (if there is one), I must be hallucinating lately.

But however it might be, the countdown of the storm is approaching as I wasted my time here, blogging. Surely, these few days later is going to be another one of many avalanches in my life.
But whatever it is,

I shall stride through this avalanche alone with a trusty weapon with me, and my strength is not going to be from a mighty god, nor friends and family, but the desperate of survival in this highly competitive world...

And may I able to still see the blooming of sakura after this...

What's waiting me on the end of road?

2.ooa.m., friday morning

Apparently I'm was stuck in Chin Jian's room because I forget to bring my key. Suddenly, there's an urge for me to blog, more precise, to pour out all the things that hidden with me....

The beginning of the end
Today was heck of a day, knowing that CTU test's coming on this Saturday, undergo Physic test, and get myself mystified in calculus class.

I'm getting to hate calculus. My whole spine shivers on the mention of calculus. My heart shrunk on the mention of calculus test. I shudder on the mention of Zuraidah's class. I didn't study for my cal 1, I sucked. I'm learned my lesson and I studied like hell for my 2nd test, feeling confident.

In the end, I get an ever poorer marks than my first test. The moment the result came up, the dice is cast- I'll never able to pass my calculus even with a simple C.

Ironically. I've been drilling in physic for more than weeks, dealing those brain squeezing question but happen to neglect one of those hard questions. In the end, that question appeared on exam among all those hard question that I poked out

Is this some kind of joke?

The end of the beginning
*flashback*

Years ago, when I am still a student of form 5 that had just received my SPM result. I was trapped in a crossroad- matriculation, form 6 or college.

While my friends was thinking for their own path, I had made my own choice -form 6. I still remembered that I made a pact with few friends of mine, that we will take physic together at form 6, go into the same U and emerged as an engineer.

Friends and families of mine considered my act as stupid, but I'm proud to make this choice, even though of the fact that STPM is one of the hardest exam you will ever encountered.

Perhaps it was my immaturity back then, I throw all those college offers that offered scholarship for good students, tossed away all those comments from helpful teachers, and fled away before my mother would nag "why don't u try to get some scholarship...bla bla bla"As the matter of fact
, I already bought some form 6 reference book even before my SPM result came up.

I still remember that I had a cold war with my mother because of the fact that I refused to apply for JPA (due to reason "I'm not giving a damn shit of going overseas") and I finally gave up and applied after one week.

The day of JPA interview was a whole failure. My whole body was sweating because of foregetting to serox my IC, and I rushed another 0.5km to the nearest shop to get it done, not to mention my motorcycle actually punctured in the way. And of course I sucked in the interview because of not preparing a single thing. In the end, I had to apologize with the inteviewee for my poor command of english.

And when the interviewee consoled us that "you shouldn't feel sad if u r not chosen.", I'm just happy that the mess is over.

Finally, when the list of JPA sponsor student came up, I did not even check. I just know that I'm chosen after my friend take my ic number and checked for it.

Sometimes, fate always play with you, you didn't get what u asked, but u get what u didn't asked for......

The moment I stepped on my uncle's car full of stuffs, I know... life's going to be a hallelujah change from now on...


*****------This post should be posted last week but owed to some difficulties, it came up late-----*****


The end of the end

Another semester is going to pass by, with me clueless as times goes by. I have been wondering on the questions

"What would my life been if I'm not in INTEC? What happened to me if I have taken the road that had been predestined for me"

Perhaps I won't be getting selsema because of lack of sleep.
Perhaps I won't be undergo such an enotional turmoil right now.
Perhaps I won't worry on when my ass is going to be kicked by JPA
Perhaps calculus is the least thing i would care right now.

Final exams are approaching, dossiers are no way to get done, CTU assignments is burning my ass ( and I know that I'm going to do it alone ) , seems like everything is a mess now

What's waiting me in the end of this road...

Juz wait and see

Animesick

Disease name:Animesick
Also knows as: Otaku coming to be disease
Symptoms: Not able to distinguish between reality and fantasy, a high tendency of imagining things, and a bad grade in CGPA
Cure: 1.) Take ur laptop, aim the furthest u can, and throw it....
2.) Throw ur laptop, or throw urself as far as you can

=.=
I promised myself not to watch any animes (particularly anime about romance) before the end of exam. And...unfortunately

Chau Kee borrowed a big stack of anime out of nowhere from Beng San, and I took a peek, and oh Gosh

Shakugan No Shana Second season (flame hair red eye hunter)

I was aware of the fact that I need to sleep early, I had discussion at 8. I got test next week, The time is twelve NOW. SLEEP...The last thing u should do is watching anime....and

The next minute, I grab the CD and watch in the bed...

And my mind still making up a resolution. OK, just this episode and you're going to sleep

But the leftover mystery from episode 1 still bugs me. so...watch episode 2....

And the streak goes until laptop close because of no power.

Phew, I wonder whether I would be sleeping if the laptop is not closed. Seriously, Japan's anime has its own way to hook its victim...

And thanks to them I'm on my way in evolving to an idiot OTAKU, but can't because of the fact that I'm broke.

Actually I did resembles an Otaku somehow =.=
-Unimagianble look
-zero girlfriend experience
-an outcast
-a nerd
-and lastly, not able to communicate but mumbles all the way.

The fact hurts, the character inside the story always have numerous girls after him despite how common the guy might be, and it's like being teased when I watch it...

It hurts, and yet I still keep myself glued on the laptop screen. Something must be wrong with me....

Nahhh, There's an emperical to do , and Physic test later. Get back to reality....

X.X

Promise? nah...

Yea, Jay Chow song's finally out, and I illegally download all those songs, guess i got sth to listen for my upcoming C++ tomorrow...

While waiting for few songs to be downloaded, might as well i write so tiny little thingy here.

Since my emoness break out, I see virtually no comment on my blog post. Well, that's a bad and good sign, at least I can assume the viewer 're getting less, so maybe I'll slip some private little thing to let up some steam...

Funny though, today someone asked me to do a silly promise, with a ice cream as a reward...=.=

As usual, I was alone grabbing a chow in AUSMAT after the CTU test, saddening for myself.

I must say, Eliza is a damn good psychologist. She makes us think that she won't come out with the samecalifornians question to us, and in the end, she use THE SAME QUESTION FOR ESSAY. The OMG part is, only I missed it...Not to mention she provided "special notes" just to mistrack fools like us, just when we though Egypt and Sumerian is a most, something else popped up. She's a damn good psychologist, at least thats what I think......

Come to think about it, I actually enjoyed civilization and CTUs, (excluding the Islamic part.) Dun think me wrong, I am ok with Islamic religion, and religion is good. But when Eliza mentioned sth about Islam, she will go mumble the same thing for more than half hour, and missed the class........

Back to topic, and I met a friend of mine in AUSMAT that had just finished Eliza's test. So, we sit together and ate.

We, as usual, ate silently without caring for each other, ocassionally exchanging some information. ..

My stomach has been acting weirdly, and my friend noticed, and the reaction is...burst to laughter(=.= cannotjudge book by its cover). And the conversation is okuntil I was told that I'm rebellious...

Huh? Does he had a better choice of word?

I asked, and he replied "Nah, that is rebellious..."

Huh, you can say I'm stubborn, but not rebellious. And in the end he raked out all those unpleasant histories to support the claim, including Miss Asma case (I wonder how he knows...)

Finally I was defeated, and he offered to make a promise that's going to drive me nuts...
"No arguing with people until one week, and an em... ice ream is urs..."

HUH, no tongue lashing for a week? But since I don't really see him much. I agreed, thinking that I didn't talk with him much, so I will have a free ice-cream, maybe hagen Dazz or baskit Robbins...

And somehow he knows what am I thinking, and the one week period was extended...and after the promise, he snorted "No baskit robbins"

Wtf......

Well, at least he 'll treat me for an ice cream so that I won't be "rebellious" (stubborn actually). He's for my own good after all, but he had no idea how hopeless I am in personality. After all, he is too pampered for his own good, trapping in his own imagination world. Nevertheless, I'm lucky to have such a "kepoh" friend after all

Though folly it may be, at least it make my day a tiny little bit better and even though he will forget (for sure), I should thank him... for making my day little bit nicer today...

But I 'll still argue (off course without his presence), but before arguing, maybe I should remember that promise to remind myself not to be that stubborn...

And he seems to forget that there are nice Ice cream such as Hagen Dazz. OMG, I always waited for that ten bucks ice cream, hehehe...

A MSN chat

Didn't feel like updating my blog, but after reading SOMEONE ELSE BLOG, I think I ought to spice the whole things up

It all starts at wednesday...

MSN(edited version, cuz memory did not serve me well)

kiyuri: who's the girl in ur MSN pic
chinjian: My girlfriend
kiyuri: Ehh, It doesn't look like angela chang
chinjian: Yeah, it is
(Btw, the msn pic is same with the pic in his blog)
................................................................................................
After some time...

kiyuri: you should go kuantan
chinjian:why?
kiyuri:Someone in Kuantan can cure ur emoness
chinjian: U mean I should find Michael...Micahel's in Pahang
kiyuri: swt....Are u gay?
chinjian: Yes.Dun worry, I won't take Michael out from stephanie

After some time....

kiyuri: Angela is in Pahang
chinjian:huh, I haven't heard of that
kiyuri: Ya, angela will be having concert in Kuantan...
chinjian: I don't think so
kiyuri: Why?
chinjian: If angela is having a concert, it must be in KULIM
kiyuri: @#$%^^$

After some time

kiyuri: seriously, she's in Pahang. This is secret information. Her no is 012-XXX XXXX(privacy)
chinjian: Huh? Why angela got a malaysia number?
kiyuri: She's staying in Pahang. If u call this no, u can even ask her to sing in front of u

After some time (this explains why michael is involved)

kiyuri: There's an angel in Kuantan that can cure your emoness.
chinjian: You mean I should find Airina, she's in Kuantan too...
kiyuri(go haywire): I mean you should go find Michael...
chinjian: Why?
kiyuri: Cuz Michael's an angel....
chinjian: Ya wo, the history book says something like this...
kiyuri: Btw, you should find a angel, not an angel....
chinjian: why? is there any difference?
kiyuri: Yes, there are differences..
chinjian: Grammar mistake?
kiyuri: No, it's a angel...angel + a, hehehehe
chinjian: Dun get it

(final part)
kiyuri: If u r not going to Kuantan , I'm going there to find angela...
chinjian: Lol
kiyuri: Stop JK la (JK here is an abbreviation of Joking)
chinjian: Ok...
kiyuri: You know what I mean actually?
kiyuri: I MEAN, STOP JK from going to find Angela.
chinjian: swt


If u r quite blur on why I post this thing, go CJ blog to find out. This should able to solve ur mystery...hehehe

Hmmm.......

Grrrr....., the downloading of Guang Liang's song take such a long time......

But his new song was so nice, so I rather wait...I've attempted several times to download his song, but it is either downloading speed was slow, or the wretched rm20 does not work.

So, I might as well blog sth, but nth in particular


-Pendrive
My nth pendrive was screwed because of experimenting the law of Newton (again, that centripetal force thing) and the pendrive just flew out to nowhere. By the time I find the coarpse, it is too late.

Tomorrow, when my friend asked about the pendrive, I blurted out everything and joked again as usual, but somehow get used to it.

Lesson: Do not play with ur pendrive(NAH, it should be dun buy a 20 buck pendrive with unknown brand)

Dun worry, later my n+1 pendrive will screw up again soon.

-C++
Wondered why the programming language was named c++? Cuz C is the highest grade that you can achieve in this subject. In calculus, you can rephrase like this.

lim C++ approaching C = C in ur CGPA,

Today Ms. Said take our third quiz,(and for the nth time) bla bla bla again about our C++, and take a look on the c++ result, it's gruesome......

12.5 out of 20, some more 6 marks gone because of a very minor mistake, what else can I say.

Before this I used to enjoy C++ during the summer session but somehow when C++ is in our syllabus, I don't really enjoy sth.

Interest should be remained as interest. If it turned to sth else, the feeling is different. Reminds me of relationship between people.

Stanford gal
Yep sharky finally updated her blog, and she's asking why is she choosing electrical engineering for her major. Anything but passion.

It lets me wonder why i choose mech.engineering as my route? I don't really know but I'll rather let the nature takes it own course. Even though I turned out not to like the subject, I don't really have a choice either.

The dream of Nobel seems further...with my choice as a mech.engineer

Suddenly missed Chia Chyuan, Chun how the teaser and also Fu Han , the soprano singer and others.

How are they doing ?

P.S.- would she reply my mail? =.= dun think she has the time


The aftermath of storm
Lately I had undergo a big emotional streak and I'm so stressed that I posted in my blog, accusing almost the entire earth. The comments are somehow a little bit harsh to read, but they make sense in some extent.

But I also noticed several changes in my friend. Some god guy keep calling me god, some bossy guy keep calling me boss and all of sudden, my pocket is 20 bucks richer.

Sth is wrong with people. I guessed I shouldn't post any sensitive thing or issues in blog, I just wanna let go some steam ( and it did), but I ended up changing the atmosphere...

Maybe if I undergo another streak, I should juz consult and blurted everything in my laptop...

Holiday
Raya holiday has almost reached the corner, indicating the end of the current assignment storm, but another wave is coming after this- empirical, C++, CTU, cal quiz, physic...

As usual, I'm not enthusiastic of going home (unless pocket dry or hand broken). I would likely face that idiot box and playing the ps2 again...

But unknowingly and suddenly I'll fly after 9 months(without accident), and I haven't communicated with any of my previous friends...

Maybe I should find their contact address and pay a visit with the bike (bicycle if possible)

After reading some blog from overseas student that are having homesick, I doubt not that I'll have the same thing.

Maybe for the first time, I may had understand fully what this phrase is...

Negaraku tanah tumoahnya darahku...


Yeah finally finnish downloading, but somehow discovered other nice songs, so I'm on a download streak again.

P.S. (Jay chow album almost out, download ! download!)

Discharging emo radiation

Warnings to the ACTP ians, I am going to explode soon, if you guys still don't want to leave this detonating bomb, it 's at ur won risk. I am so PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW, I 'm in the deep state of emo...no, I feel like suffocating ald...

First of all, I have to congratulate some of my friends for actually making this piece of wood like me running through an emo streak like this. I thought I can still endure things until December but unfortunately I can't, I HAD ENOUGH. EVEN JK THE CLOWN HAS HIS OWN LIMITS.

Tests, quizzes, academic hearing had already killing me. Days are harsh when I knew that I'm going to screw another test today. Some more I had a very "nice" date with the officers of INTEC, being treated as a top criminal for a crime of not wearing ties and nametags. And lastly my pocket is RM100 deeper thanks to the love letters they gave. Not to mention the 10bucks I owed Sharon, the bus ticket, classmates birthday RM10, and also a loss of RM12 because some freak just say" I didn't wanna to. You can ask Sam, Boon Hui for..."

CUT IT OUT FREAK. If you don't want to pay, fine. I've learned my lessons.

So if I am clumsy or what? So if I am careless or whatsoever you might think. Why are you guys bother a single bit about it! I didn't lost your stuff, as you guys are not even dare to borrow me stuff or whatsoever. Please, I had my life tough enough because of my own carelessness and I did not need a reminder from you, unless you think that it's fun to sprinkle some salt on the wound.

Esp for one guys, I admire your courage for trying to detonate me, even when my head was written "PISSED OFF" on it, you can still smiling as if nothing has happened and bla..bla whatsoever. PLEASE! I had enough of arguing non-nonsensical stuff. If you still wanted to continue debate, GO TO BATTLE OF MINDS. Why picked a fight on me?

And also to the most selfish guys in the world, you have no idea how pissed off I am. The fact that I can still go selamba when I see the selfish face of yours proves that I'm freaking patient towards your miscellaneous. But if you see this (I think you won't see this), I am happily to tell you that YOU REACHED MY LIMIT. Who are I referred to? Go think yourself.

And finally I announced that I will left this DAP (DoTA Action Party) which I would rather rephrased as (Dumb-dota Action Party). For the first time I found myself not enjoying the game when I played. I get stressed instead when I played with all of you. It is just a game, why did u bother lecturing me for decades just because of losing a fight against AI players. WHY CAN'T U JUST LET ME ENJOYED THE GAME and KEEP QUIET!!!

Thanks to you, I had no interest in DOTA or whatsoever...It is just a game, I just can't get it why I should concentrate on a game but not my deteriorating studies.

And finally to my friends, the moment I posted this thing means that I 'm in a high stress and emo right now. Kindly let me chill down for some bit, ok? I still regard ACTPs as my friend, it is just that I'm out of my mind thanks to some peoples.

Finally, if you think I should apologize on my post just comment me. But, I really meant what I wrote.

Misc Part 2

(Before reading this post, please read Misc part 1)

2 September 2008

The key of mine is nowhere to be found, and I got class tomorrow at ten. Judging by Chau Kee's cautious attitude, he will surely locked the door before he left, and the incident of me trapped in my own room will happen again.

However, I already predicted that it will happen, so I left Azizi a note, asking him to leave his key in the desk before going to school.

However, things are not meant to be...

3rd September 2008

I woke up at 8.30 lazily from the bed, and as usual chau kee locked the door. Never mind, I will take Azizi's key....Huhh?

OMG WHERE IS AZIZI'S KEY???

Well, maybe Azizi left it somewhere in his table. If I look carefully for a few times...

5 minutes later, after searching around azizi's table in microscopic view, I had to declare...

That AZIZI did not left his key as promised.

Yikes, looks like the only option is to search for my own lost key, and judging by the experience of my last searching, I doubt that I 'll found my key.

Maybe...maybe third floor is not that high, come to think about it......

I completely gave up on attempts of going school, even though I should submit my lab report (which somehow ended up same group with Chiyo) If I screwed up, I wouldn't dare to imagine it.

I lied on the bed, looking at ceiling as all hope has lost, and still hoping that Azizi will come and unlock the door (but it's only 9.30 during that time.)

I poked at my own wallet to see how much money I had and ping... a silvery metal sound was heard...

It 'S THE KEY THAT I LOST. No wonder I can't find the key all over my room when it is just inside my wallet.Without hesitation, I rushed to the last bus before 10 and feel grateful for being so lucky (Lucky?)

Later when I encountered Azizi, I asked him
"Why didn't u leave me the key"

Azizi did not answer my question, instead he asked..
"How come you're still here?"

I answered that I found my key, and Azizi replied me in a way that left me speechless.

"You see, my failure of giving you the key leads to your success of finding your key.

Maybe he was right. If he had gave me the key in first place, I won't bother looking at my key and perhaps wondering where's my key when the key is just inside my wallet.

Watever...

Misc...

I wrote down this piece of blog because of the feeling of frustration and humor.

In my opinion, the world most frustrating invention is the lock and key. Why? Simple enough, because I always lost it.

This tiny shiny metal thingy, no larger than my finger, can cause a hella of ruckus if you lost it. It can even affect a whole spectacular show...

What am I talking? My dear, before closing this blog, please listen to my story.

28August 2008, Friday
-the day of the drama has finally arrived, with my survival at risk. If I screwed out the show as a stage manager, SanJie (Drama PM) is going to slice me, Chiyo (foong yi) is going to curse my 18th generation ancestor, and Hatsumomo (Pui Yin) is going to cut me instead of the apple.

Bearing this in mind, I must get everything settled in a orderly manner. After making sure all tools are there, I "gladly" stepped out a small step to door, which is a big key step for my survival in the rest of my life.

The door is locked...

Haiz, chau kee, always locking the door before going out. So cautiou of him. Never mind, might as well take my key on my table...key?

OMG WHERE'S THE KEY??? I thought I put on the table yesterday...yesterday? On table?.. Hmm wait a minute...where and when did I put it?

After 5 minutes of looking around the table, I had to declare...MY KEY IS LOST.

To find the key, I launched an extensive operation of finding that tiny key, from bed to table and even to my dirty clothes(which I didn't wash for weeks...)

I had been thinking of other ideas (jumping from 3rd floor, which is a sure death), or picking the lock with a wire(unfortunately I don't know how), but none of them are realistic to begin with...

Just as all hope is lost, as I thought that I will be murdered because of ruining the drama (juz imagine, Hatsumomo (Pui Yin) cut the apple, without even having an apple for her to cut...), ...when I actually saw Shinigami(the Death God) waving his hand at me...

Izzat unlocked the door and came inside my room.

Phew, the life savior is here. For the first time, I think Izzat is super cool.

Without hesitation, I rushed out from my room with a whole luggage of props behind me.

The key is still nowhere to be found. (FYI, I ald lost a key before. The key I lost is actually the second key I get from Cemara office. ).

But the story still haven't end...