A story to share (part 0)

Oh, today is thanksgiving. However, instead of engaging in massive shopping or eating this guy below~ ~

I stayed in my room, having an Otaku life of watching anime, and woke up late, missing the chance to have my free thanksgiving meal. Well, not that I care about turkey, because after all...I ate a turkey before~~

Well, at least it's still turkey : ). And it costs one buck to have such a wholesale meal. I think I should stock some of these guys next time I go shopping. However..., speaking about shopping, I unfortunately in a situation that could only be described by this picture...~~~

While friends of mine might go to Gucci, Prada Jimmy Choo shopping spree, my dream of getting a decent desk lamp, a 8GB memory card and rice cooker with a cheap price came into bubble when the bank account showed a cute 12.00USD in my TCF bank account.

So huh?! JPA didn't bank in my allowance after all. And as I imagined my friends enjoying themselves in Chicago, or shopping spree in Albertville, I was forced to stay in my own room, alone while others enjoying good company and using those money for a shipping spree. It's a competition of time, whether I will get my money before I starved to death or before I was unable to pay my rent...

Hatred...Jealousy...Feelings of injustice soaked into my mind as I stayed in my room in this holiday...well, this image suits the best

                                                           

Well, why am I posting this pic?

And thus after this introduction post, I shall introduce and tell you the story of mine.

P.S. Guess who the girl is, an Anime character, and also part of reason I missed my free turkey =p.

T . T

Sorry, I have been wanting to go Chicago to meet all of you, but sadly, It just felt wrong when I had to ask people to borrow money for rent while going Chicago at the same time...and this was the painful choice I had to made....

Missing those penn state people, in this last 3 months in INTEC, we had really good times together, regardless of DoTA, or other thing else, I really wanna see that naughty skeleton face, the innocent boon hui look, the preverted Ben, the Sam's evil smirk, and the hoong Ching 's Z looking attitude...

And also wei young, the guy that could be angel and devil at same time, Chin Jian, Jia Mun, and etc and had a good complains and debate of life...

There are many people I wanted to see and talk too, instead of get stuck in room in Thanksgiving. Nevertheless, and sorry, I couldn't make it.

May my wishes with you all.

重要的东西总是难以发现-银魂EP 104

A：

我孤独一人并不是我的错。

我什么都没有错。

都是无能，因为他们太无能了。

我和他们居住的世界不一样

我是被选中的人。

无法接受孤独，而将孤独的责人怪罪他人。

害怕被人拒绝，于是就先自己拒绝自己。

害怕受到伤害，于是便演上爱上孤独的戏。

心里便形成个围墙。

为此，唯独想将才华昭示于天下的表现欲。

日欲不断膨胀，希望可以得到别人的认可。

即时得到认可也得不到满足。

我能更有所就，我和你们不一样。

我要让你们体会到我的存在。

B：

你所追寻的，并不是可以了解你的人

A：

不知不觉我就忘记了

我真正想得到的

不是名誉，钱财，地位，才能这些。

甚至不是能了解自己的人

我只不过希望有人能在我身边

只是希望有人能关注我

只是讨厌孤独一个人

只是。。。。

只是想要能从正面真正接受我的同伴

从正面看着我

想要能从正面和我交手的人

只是想要得到同伴。

我想要的东西。。

很早以前就一直在这里了

我想要的东西

很久以前早已结上了

Quoted from Gintama - Episode 103