An unexpected scare

It was 11pm in the night, I was having some "business" in my toilet, toying with my cellphone while I was stuck in toilet.

The cellphone blared, interrupting my cell phone games, and I know, it's my sister again. It actually sent a chill down my spine, as my sister wasn't exactly a silent type person.  And I certainly don't enjoy my sister asking me whether I am single or not. Even though I tried to hint her that I am busy, she doesn't seem to get it ( or rather ignore it), and proceeded with her 30 minutes talk...

Well, guess I'll answer the phone, I hesitated a moment and click the receive button.

What I don't expect though, is the following sentences from her...

" Mother has been in hospital " .

Huh?

You can't be kidding me!

Wait, this must be a mistake, I convinced myself to calm down, and ask my sister again, and she came with the same dreaded sentence again...

What? Is all I can say.

And the dreadful transmission started to take a toll on my phone, as my sister tried to utter some sentences I can't hear clear enough, and after few minutes, when things finally cool down, I barely understand the situation.

"Mom was taking a walk with the dog, when she saw an untied Rottweiler , she got scared and get panicked, and fall down because of that..."

Believe me, I actually breathed a sigh of relief. And I asked my sister about my mother's condition, she just replied " a not so serious eye damaged, and some bruise here and there.

And I finally able to relax, when my mother answered the phone, and said that she only suffered some minimal skin damage. And she proceeded on how my aunt able to convince ( or force, to be exact ) the dog owner to pay the bill... and she do it in her "own way", my mom said

PHEEEWWW...............

Perhaps it's a very weird response from me, but my experiences with hospital wasn't exactly a good one. When I was form 3, my mother got admitted into hospital, and get diagnosed with cancer...and I knew it because my aunt talked me through the phone.

And in these past 1 - 2 years and so, I had 1-2 experiences getting an innocent looking phone-call, but turned out to be my mom get admitted to hospital for some another unknown diseases again...I had no idea...no idea...when after 4-5 years of peaceful times, I would get another cellphone call, telling me that my mother is in hospital again...

And of course, I am very relieved when it was just some injury, which is minor compared to some unknown diseases that got my mom lying in the white bed for days......

I thought about all those tough times my mother had faced, and how she managed to overcome it, while successfully bringing her son to study in the university, I can't help but to think my emotional problems are very much petty compared to hers. For a second, I am ashamed...for me making a storm out of teacup because of some emotional problems I had faced during these years

And I think I got another reason to study, shrug, I guess.

Mom, please be ok.

Jin Khang

A small hi

I decide to continue, despite the bitter feeling that has been around me for quite some time.

Time to say Hi to those busy days. And find back the me that can still smile when work is piling up.

Yep, a broken feet and some ( not some, a lot, but anyway ) chattering won't stop me from finishing my stuff on time.

Hello, midnight, as welcoming as ever

Edward

For the first time

I don't know how is laughing behind me.

I don't know how to believe 

I don't know who's friend and who's not

I don't know whether I'm bothered or not.

But for the first time,

I know I actually cared about my image

A tarnished one, a condemned one

For years people either think I am a nuisance

or I am a fool

And for years I accepted people looking me

as a lool

But for the first time

I don't

And I shall get a new change today

And I shall shut down my heart 

And I shall shut down my faith

For the sake of  an already fragile image
A castle of thorns
Is better than a thorough despised lair

And from now on
People shall looks the castle and not the room

But just for tonight

I don't understand who I can turn to when there's trouble

And yet for tonight

I truly understand how alone I am really be
And after tonight
I will never understand what dependent is.

And perhaps night to come
I will savor the bitter fruit of maturity
The fruit of pretentious and hypocrisy

Edward 

Code to bind to

正康


察言观色，见风使舵，与人周旋，八面玲珑，见人说人话，见鬼说鬼话。


我做不到。 这几十年来， 我做不到。


我自己认为的友善，是人眼中的傻瓜。


没关系，房友没说错。我是时候改变了。从今天开始，我会板起我的脸，脸中，一就是认真，一，就是奉承，一就，就是客套起来。 


在美国，客套这一套，我变得很了得。 但是，从今天起，那些要我和他客套的人，将不会是我的朋友，只能是熟人，和路人没差别。我会学会板起脸孔， 也不会再讲一句和自己有关的东西，也不会再往自己头上踩。


我的好房友，我在讥笑你，无非是要你知道，你的态度，会弄你兜不完，你却说我是个傻瓜，也仅为这样我才知道那些我和他友善的人，都是他们眼中的傻瓜。

说真的，我真的很天真，以为和你们闹着，就代表我们友情不错。 原来，我只是一个傻瓜。除了一些好朋友之外， 我想要和你们说。你要我客气，我可没问题。你叫我JK，我会叫你给我个正统的叫法，否则我会不理你。 

说我认命，我认命了。我情愿虚伪起来，也不要做个小丑。 从今已后，你在大众将死，会由我来代替。

但我希望，这个世界，会有一些人会不管理节的和你友好。但只要一天，他还是会像我一样，所以从今起，我不会在后面酸人

                                                                                                 爱德华

Cresendos of daily Z

From 8am to 9am : zzzzzzzzzz

From 9am to 10am : zzzzzzzzzzzz

From 11am to 1pm: zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

From 1.30pm to 2.15pm :zzzzzzzzzzzzz

From 2:30 to 3:25pm : ______________________

From 3:25 to 4:30   :zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

From 4:30 to 7:30   : Z? (#$%^&*)

From 7:30 to 9:30  : zzzzzzzzzz

From 9:30 to 12:00 : zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

From 12:00 to 1:00 : zzzzzzzzzzzzz

From 2:00 to 4:00  :Z(?)

From 4:00 to 6:00 :zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

From 6:30 to 8:00 :zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

To explain this crap, the font of z represents the degree of sleepiness, (?) means "huh, why am i not asleep " . and $%^&*( means consequences I get if i am sleepy)

Just found out I can do nth for 15 minutes, so decide to login to blog and write something random

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