yrros enoyreve

when people are obsessed with their own sadness

they sometimes just don't notice how lucky they are compared to someone else

Dun bother looking for the new blog

because I had just realized

It's better to revise own self than to blame the whole world

Knock my head if I made the same mistake again next time

Crap of the day

It's always better to cry now than cry later

Lesson of the day

Stop being self centered...

response to sc4bkk old post

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/sc4bbk/31367985

A link for Chinese readers for a profound piece. Well, I will never expect him to provide a good piece of writing like this. He doesn't read my blog though, so, I guess I will do a one side response to his blog content.

我们称眼睛为灵魂之窗。耳朵我则不晓得。但是人们的弱点在于太过相信所见的，所闻的。世上很多看不见，听不见的却依然是真理。Galileo Galilei 被软禁因为他不坚持地球绕太阳转。就算是现今社会也有太多被当权者掩盖、抹杀的事实。这个世界有我们不愿，不敢面对的真相。或许更多的是那些没有人有勇气说出口的真理。世界人口以指数增长，相应地每个人对整体社会所能构成的影响变得越加渺小，人们就越不能主宰自己的未来。

Translation: We declared that eyes are the window of our soul, yet we believed much in what we saw. In this world, there are many things that we can't touch or see, yet they are one of those absolute fact in the mass universe. Galileo Galilei is imprisoned, because he believes that earth orbits around the sun, not vice versa. And today cases like galileo happens around us, when truth is hidden or concealed by those people in power. There are many truth in this world, that we refused to face, or choose not to believe. Population grows more and more, and because of that,individual has lesser and lesser influence to the society, and human, soon enough, will find that they cannot govern their own future.

Peace be upon you, but I had to say, I found your statement to be depressing, or even lame. In this world, we had 95% of people who think they should live how the society says, that it is taboo to fight against the norm of society itself. You realized the depressing fact of the world, yet you have choose to be those people who follows the norm. You choose to believe that you have no influence to society, yet you choose to do nothing, you aspire nothing. My friend, no matter how profound your piece is, for me, it is just complains if there's no action and aspiration behind. And because we believe that we shouldn't break the norm of society, we believe that we had no influence to the society as a whole, and because of all these thoughts, we let ourselves being ruled and toyed by those in power. Yet in history itself, there are many individuals , who alone influenced the whole world -Mahatma Ghandi, Winston Churchill, Adolf Hitler, Harry Truman and etc

I know the same thing might applies to me, but one thing though, I aspire to change, no matter how small my power might be.

昨天看了一部纪录片，或者说是在课堂里教授播了一部纪录片，Zeitgeist。它说基督根本就是编构出来的人物，和古埃及或其他文明的神并没有什么两样。（甚至是后者的衍生品）它说911根本就是美国自己编织出来的舞台剧，为的是以反恐合理化自己对其他国家的侵略。它严厉抨击美国为新法西斯主义的拥护者，以及最终以金融陷阱奴隶化全人类。其实如果这部纪录片是纯粹无理取闹我并不会那么在意。反之它拥有可以确认的证据支持它的每一个论点。这是多么的令人捉狂！活在真理与谎言参杂的年代使我越来越难不去质疑任何一个观点或论点。我们以往一直滥用“知识爆炸”这个短语。现在这个年代还有什么东西是不爆炸为快的？真的很遗憾活在当下没有获得多得爆炸的知识之前不能断定世事的真伪对错；而就算已经拥有所有的知识也未必就能找到真理。最终只能选择相信自己比较愿意相信的选择。（就因为这样人们显得那么不必要的愚蠢）

(not bothering translation)

My friend, believe it or not, I actually believes some of the truth in Zeigeist,but I did not mean to disgrace your belief. However in the argument of god, I don't actually agree that their viewpoint stands though. The fact that the similarities of other gods and Jesus actually means nothing, and it is immature to conclude that god doesn't exist because of those coincidence. The coincidence can mean other thing besides the non-existence of god. The explanation somehow, proves that god existed, since there's a common consensus of god features in different religion. You call "HIM" Jesus, while Egyptian, and other religions might call it with a different name, but it could actually refer to the same "HIM".

A story from Christian. There's once a person that wished to find who god is ( he doesn't know Christianity), he went to the highest mountain and after some time, he returned and say something like this.

" I don't know who god, or what his name is, but I know that god exists in three, yet as one identity (Trinity)

I know some of you might know that I'm an atheist, but well..................

Sorry for any misinterpretation, I didn't mean disrespect to any beliefs and religion.

But I do agree that there is some problem in current financial system - the interest system , and also the capitalism of united states. And as the matter of fact, United States is paying for their own flaw in the system. Believe me, the Muslims actually mentioned that the interest system is not a good thing, and surprisingly, their argument holds, and therefore, I had to agree with the clip.

And regarding about the 911 incidents, they are just providing another view of the incident. You say those fact and proof drives you mad, but what you did not know is, - if there's 9 proof that states that 911 is fake, there might exists 99 proofs that actually disprove their theory, but they just overlooked it, or choose not to present it.

My friend, never fear of knowledge, and I still believe, knowledge leads to the truth. When you are despair because of the 9 proofs you know, this might be a proof that you didn't have the knowledge for the another 99proofs. Right or Wrong, is not something you can judge unless you have full understanding, and to have understandings, you need knowledge. So never fear of knowledge and truth. Some false arguments is made not because of fraud knowledge, but the absence of true knowledge instead.

One more sentence to you, I guess. "Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free."John 8:32

( i think i overdone this T.T)

Resume for girls. part 1

"Anyway, I wish you luck in finding a gf.. I can't wait till the day you change your fb status." quote ' MSN hotmail, friend of mine 24. oct 2009"

I guess this is the catalyst of my blog topic.

Well, since I already enjoying (?) single life for 19 years, I guess I should really start hunting for girls here. Well, hunting a girlfriend needs a resume, like how you hunt a job. Though people always said love is a feeling and irrational, I still believe that the best candidates will always win in the game of love. (I know some of you might disagree, but let's leave the argument it in MSN chat.")

SO, I should do an unbiased review on myself, to see which part of me appeal to girls =p.

Let the stress (yep, stress) begin.

Name:

I guess this should be easy. But, then again, this "name" column is a big problem to me since the introduction of new concept "first name and last name". I had encountered few situations when I was asked to fill my name, I will be thinking whether......to put Choh Jin Khang, or Jin Khang Choh? My university ID is Choh Jin Khang, but it is a common for US folks to put their given name after first name. So, I should put "Jin Khang Choh" instead. But, this might cause a conflict since the name "Jin Khang Choh" is not same as my university ID. So in the end, which name should I put?

So to cut the fuss out, I should write "my name is Choh Jin Khang", and "Jin Khang Choh", even though it was the same person.

Preferred name:

I would prefer people to call me Edward, however this is not the case most of the time. I was more well known as JK, and sometimes J.K. Rowling or Joking. This has to account to my own naiveness when I first came to college, when I introduced myself as JK, without knowing that jk was a well known abbreviation for "joking". And since then, I bear the nick JK until now. This cause a conflict sometimes when I saw message like this in MSN pops out

"Lol JK" ___________Did they mean "Lol, joking", or Lol "Jin Khang" ? I guess I couldn't run away from this JK, until there's mass brainwash happens among those "nasty folks" that called me JK, or I protested through any channel possible, facebook, blog, hotmail, but, I don't think I'm bothered to do both. So, instead of grumbling, I should give up and perhaps, shutting down my auditory system as those nasty folks thinking new ways to ridicule the name JK - and examples will be Joking, JKL, JK rolling, Jin Ka or whatsoever.

Girls, I would appreciate you to call me Jin Khang or Edward, but if JK appeals to you more, I guess I had no choice. But then again, this creates another confusion to me when we first met

" You must be JK" means "You must be joking", or "You must be Jin Khang"?

Job:

A humble undergraduate in the university of Minnesota, I am sophomore for this year. However, I didn't live up as a student as I dota-ed (it's a game, don't bother much") , facebook-ed, and slept. I never go parties. I had zero tolerance to alcohol, and I preferred staying in my own coven, and faced the laptop all the time. A unproductive student that relies on sponsor's money to live. Doesn't commit much in school activities, and I would be categorized, in girl dictionary, as heavenly nerdly nerd, however I failed to live the reputation as nerd either because I am not a fan of study.

Attitude:

Low level of humor, low level of sociability. Not the type of guy when girl will say as ladies man. Has a real lackadaisical attitude on everything. Enjoys skepticism and extreme selfish behavior. A rational minded guy that had little sense of humor, clumsy, and often did something that other don't expect. Might be an incarnation of Devil, because I don't believe in gods, I believe human are selfish to the core, I believe there's no an almighty god, and ya, I prefer Darwinism than Adam and Eve.

Dang! This sound real bad....

I know...

I think you might be too critical about yourself, maybe you aren't...

Well, I think 98%of girls will agree to that...

I want some proof please. There's no way......

Sorry if it offends and may peace be with you...

99% of girls in secondary school agrees to what I write (and I'm glad to have 1%), so I should not bother listing out..

INTEC girls: Yep, about 60% agrees, though they might deny it...I wouldn't bother for name calling, but well, I deserve those comments that the girls might had to me, and to whoever that I might concern, peace be within her and may you just whooped me out of my mind, and forgive those acts I might had done.

You are hopeless, why didn't you just find a cliff and...

Suicide is stupid just because you can't get a girl, and there's many thing I wanted to do - travel around, helping helpless, change the world, discover new breakthrough, and maybe finding a girlfriend.

You really like "fantasy" do you?

I guess so, after all, when people are faced with the harsh realities, they fantasize.

THEN WHY DID YOU BOTHER WRITING THIS RESUME?

Well, I had been in a lone world for 19 years, tending to myself, silently facing own predicament, and sometimes I enjoyed companies, but well, no one really knows who I am, and well, it shucks when you have no one to shout to, no one to care and concern about you ( parent excluded ), and the walls can be real cold and harsh...when no one to love, when no one actually cares you, and when you don't have someone to commit to

Then which type of girl you want?

Looks OK and nice, knowledgeable and would be able to accept the way as I am, and not trying to change me. Easy, isn't it?

I guess this is not easy to find a girl like this. She must be a saint, chap.

Ya, I guess.

Good luck though

I think lots of people tell me that when it comes to girlfriend discussion.

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Sorry guys

I guess, some things are better left unknown

Dim light

两年前痴情漫漫

仅仅只是今日前夕梦

只奈何

日后孤寂如何过

唯有圆月高高在上

唯有暗影与我伴随

唯有一杯葡萄美酒

伴我度过乡外的中秋

想对月长哮

诉我心中孤単

只恐惊动月上的嫦嬭吴刚

不想因我一人孤独

到头变成棒打鴛鴦

襄王有梦

神女无心

奈何!

奈何!

唯有拂拂长袍

漫过这孤寂中秋