Final is finally over when I finally realized that my computer might reached its final dying stage...
Huhh??
* one day ago *
Boon: JK, the game u downloaded, dun have CD key wo.
= = : Ok lo, I'll find the cd key lo
Note
This criminal called = = had been associated with many crimes, especially when it comes to softwares. This cheapie never buy his software, he cracked his OS, 100% of his games are all illegally downloaded and crack. 99% of the application in his computer is illegal.
So far, he had able to find the softwares he wanted and bypassing it easily, *courtesy of Google *
P.S. : For people that are reading this post, u are also one of the cheapies (unless Mike) . I can easily guarantee that the microsoft word 2007 you use must be pirated
Back to the story...
(after searching for keygens and serial key of the game, in process, stumbled on some unpleasant porn, he finally found it.
= = : download this keygen then, it should be ok...
AVIRA Anti virus : BEEP. this is a virus, trojan XXX
= = : Ceh, AVIRA always label crack and keygen as virus, even thoughthey are just fine...What's wrong with Anti virus nowadays
Click *ignore this threat*
5 minutes later...
= = : Why my power ISO cannot work?? (which is cracked). And my Garena also got bug (a dota gaming utility)
Kian Hui: Noob, use FREE ANTI VIRUS for wat? Use nod32 la. Smart Security le.
= = : Crack software again ah......I guess i install lo (another cracked software into collection)
5 minutes later...
Nod 32: Virus detected!
= = : Fuck la, must be the keygen I downloaded got virus! Shit la ! Nod 32, kill the virus
Nod 32: Unable to remove the threat....
= = : Fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Boon (whimper) : Sorry Jk......sorry Jk......sorry JK......
The 2nd day
= = : Virus only mah. It's not the first time I deal with virus, and I'll delete you this time...*cursed the anti virus*...U ah, cracked Nod32 Anti virus tak guna betul
Kian Hui: Nod32 cannot meh...it shud be the most powerful antivirus...got sysInspector...got this.....got that....
= = : The best anti virus in this world : Google. (think why...)
30 minutes later
= = : Swt, google revealed few method, but every method required me to install software. z, i try lo...
Thunder downloader : BEEP!!!!!!!
= =: finnish download dy, now can scan and remove the virus lo
1 hour later
= = : Z, why the virus is still there one...
Kian hui: Nah, try this la. This is a few removal tool i get from internet abt ur virus
- - : can work meh?
Kian Hui : Dunno wo, juz cincai use. Whoo knows can le?
= = : ok lo
5 minutes later
= = : OOI, why the removal tool suddenly restart my com. I'm stil dwonloading file de...
Kian hui : Dunno wo, some removal tool like tat one lo
= = : Wait, sth wrong...OOI, i cannot login into windows Vista!! BLUE SCREEN of DEATH!
Kian Hui: Aiya, u try safe moda, last known good config settings...
= = : Ok lo, shud be ok de...
5 minutes later
= = : The problem still there. Sei lo. How to play game tonite?
Kian Hui: Why like this one , removal tool shud be......
= = : Nid find Mike for recovery disc. Wait...Mike back ald, so, find Ah Boon la
Boon : ZZZZZZ
= = : NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My computer!!!!
Now i am on a cc in attempt to find solutions for my grave problem. My lessons is...
-dun download crack and keygen
-dun ignore ur anti-virus warning
-dun pretend pro and solve ur computer problem...
= = and becuz of that, i might had a risk of reformatting with windows, and delete my precious game in the process...
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Sunday, April 19, 2009
The end of the beginning
Tomorrow marked the beginning of the final test, and I'm just finnished 1 /4 of my calculus revision, with 3 more to go..., and i can sense impending doom in my final = =.
I really wanted to audit Cal3, but the mark i get from my test 4 made me ponder...is it a waste when you stil have a chance to score an OK GPA in cal 3?
And Mr.Kamal words rang in my brain = " I salute those people that had finnished cal3." After all, we had spent 3 sem, all sour and bitter, it should be ended with this final test tomorrow.
While for other test, frankly I had not preparation, so i guess I'm good as dead...in this next 4 days
= = still wan go online somemore...
*..................................................................................................*
Once, there were good times when ACTP guys will sit together, emo together, rant everything they had in their mind, and walked in every single corner of shopping complex. We are able to stand under one identity, ACTP. We worked through thick and thin in most things, from strangers we became friends, we gossiped, everything. We crapped, we organize party together and etc
We emo together, we sad together, and we always know there's a shoulder when you're sad, and even at most times, it turned out your sadness become our sadness. We share joy and sadness together.
I always call them as stupid, for worrying things that others should worry.
But little do we realize how lucky we are during that time.
Starting in this semester, it seemed that strange things started to happen. Though in the surface, nothing happened, as a silent storm, yet, deep inside, unimaginabe storm commenced underground, and it even shocked me to know those things.
It seemed that there's an invisible barrier started to form among some of us, and though how fragile the reasons is, the barrier were suprisingly strong. Unknowing awkwardness started to form, and greeting certain people was suddenly a hard thing to do.
And even from my room, the good old swings under my room were never filled with joyous people playing swings, or emo-ing people sitting there chatting.
What had happened among us?
Regardless of the reasons might be, can't you guys just let go of those difference among you, and embraced the friendships like the old days. If the issues were really serious, what's the worth of your good old memories?
Didn't u guys realized that you had reached the time when friendship started to get scarce?
I'm lucky to still have some friends to crap with me, but from a third view of perspective, I really hope that you guys will get well soon.
It started to remind a past conversation of mine.
Y: You know, girls are really simple in mind.
JK: But, you'll never know how complex the world might be.
Y: A person with simple mind is always happy, cuz they never had to think much.
I was laughing at her naivity last sem, but come to think abt it, I'll prefer to believe in her simplicity , despite how complex the world might be...
I hope some of you get enlightened
I really wanted to audit Cal3, but the mark i get from my test 4 made me ponder...is it a waste when you stil have a chance to score an OK GPA in cal 3?
And Mr.Kamal words rang in my brain = " I salute those people that had finnished cal3." After all, we had spent 3 sem, all sour and bitter, it should be ended with this final test tomorrow.
While for other test, frankly I had not preparation, so i guess I'm good as dead...in this next 4 days
= = still wan go online somemore...
*..................................................................................................*
Once, there were good times when ACTP guys will sit together, emo together, rant everything they had in their mind, and walked in every single corner of shopping complex. We are able to stand under one identity, ACTP. We worked through thick and thin in most things, from strangers we became friends, we gossiped, everything. We crapped, we organize party together and etc
We emo together, we sad together, and we always know there's a shoulder when you're sad, and even at most times, it turned out your sadness become our sadness. We share joy and sadness together.
I always call them as stupid, for worrying things that others should worry.
But little do we realize how lucky we are during that time.
Starting in this semester, it seemed that strange things started to happen. Though in the surface, nothing happened, as a silent storm, yet, deep inside, unimaginabe storm commenced underground, and it even shocked me to know those things.
It seemed that there's an invisible barrier started to form among some of us, and though how fragile the reasons is, the barrier were suprisingly strong. Unknowing awkwardness started to form, and greeting certain people was suddenly a hard thing to do.
And even from my room, the good old swings under my room were never filled with joyous people playing swings, or emo-ing people sitting there chatting.
What had happened among us?
Regardless of the reasons might be, can't you guys just let go of those difference among you, and embraced the friendships like the old days. If the issues were really serious, what's the worth of your good old memories?
Didn't u guys realized that you had reached the time when friendship started to get scarce?
I'm lucky to still have some friends to crap with me, but from a third view of perspective, I really hope that you guys will get well soon.
It started to remind a past conversation of mine.
Y: You know, girls are really simple in mind.
JK: But, you'll never know how complex the world might be.
Y: A person with simple mind is always happy, cuz they never had to think much.
I was laughing at her naivity last sem, but come to think abt it, I'll prefer to believe in her simplicity , despite how complex the world might be...
I hope some of you get enlightened
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Growth - the fifth
*The countdown clock is still clicking. *
4 more months left, and I will be flying to Minnesota (T.T , my 3rd choice university, but nevertheless, it was not a bad uni. )
And exactly 2 years ago, nobody will be expecting a Kampung Boy like me to step away to other place other than Ipoh. And frankly, I was quite reluctant to leave the peace little Ipoh (T.T Ipoh’s no longer harmony now, though…), because I will be leaving my PS2 behind, and breaking my oath with my form 5 friends that we will stick together through thick and thin.
How am I going to stay alone? What if JPA kicked me during this 2 years? What if the students there are all big meanie… What if… What if…
And I stepped into my cousin’s car with all those what if… in my mind.
And frankly I like and really appreciated the two years of being here, though there are more hardships to face, more emotional problem popping out of nowhere, more clothes to wash, more unlucky things happened (knocked my head, spoilt my laptop, injured my right hand, and injured my right ankle…there’s always something every semester). And I’m glad that I didn’t fly in the first year, because I would be missing lots of valuable lessons in life if I did.
Nevertheless, those experiences were cool in one way, and by facing those problems alone for the first time, I’m glad that I had benefitted from those. I still remember the first day I came here. I was so worried because my JPA application was not complete that it bugged me for whole week. Now? I might be wondering that why that Miss Yuinyi (or sometimes liz, or CJ ) would had emo-ed for petty issues, almost forgetting that I actually behaved like them before.
I learned a lot in INTEC, I learned to play basket after Wei young taught me (NOTE: DUN JUDGE THE BOOK BY ITS COVER, OR IN THIS CASE, HEIGHT). I learned the arts of DoTA thanks to Chau Kee and Sam. I learned to karaoke thanks to Kian Hui. I played futsal thanks to Chin Jian. I learned to be crazy and gossip thanks to Kia Tzun and the Gang. I learned to be a less meanie thanks to some people. I learned to socialize with other races thanks to my ex roommates and current roommates (Adib , Kuteng (girder), Nouri (che-ne-ne, I prefer calling you burung nuri though), and Azizi )etc. I learned about computer registry, RAM, thanks to Hayeri and Michael. And I learned to emo because of Liz and Yuinyi. Lolz
And I started to know the meaning of what love is because of you, my special someone.
I know you might not be reading this, but I really owe you thanks a lot. Thanks for reminding me how many laptops and handphone I loss (T.T). Thanks for being friend despite what happened, for making me a little bit more matured. Thanks for making me realize that my life wasn’t all that horrible. Thanks for cheering me up with a 2-buck ice cream despite me not keeping my promise. You really have changed me, and though I can’t really tell what it is, I know that my life’s not going to be same if I had not met you.
And if by any chance you see this, I would like to say a big THANK YOU to you, and…if after years later both of us are still single, I would try my luck again, (if by any chance you are owned, then I’ll be sincerely pray for your relationship and find a gal better than you =p.)
But regrettably, some old habits were still with me despite these two years. I still lost my things; I still like to tease people, to the extent of enraging people sometimes; I still like to complain (I tried not to) and etc. etc.
And in this last 4 months, I am glad to say that I didn’t hand in a white sheet. It was full of color, full of happiness, and sorrow, full of wisdom, foolishness and immaturity. Full of fun and sad, enlightening and depressing experiences.
And I’ll not going to toss this last 4 months into nothing. There are already plans planned by the Florida gangs. Lecturer picnic tomorrow, class cinema session, Florida trips, MMS…..guess what, I all in ( though it means my pocket gonna be low low low low……)
Whether I am happy or emo-ing, angry or whatsoever, I won’t forget how this two years had shaped me and finally…
Thanks for admitting me to INTEC and thanks for coloring my life in this two years, and specially thank you for appearing in my life.
P.S. ( Almost forget Thanks for Yuin Yi for inspire me to blog, cuz I blogged after I’m so interested reading ur blog.)
4 more months left, and I will be flying to Minnesota (T.T , my 3rd choice university, but nevertheless, it was not a bad uni. )
And exactly 2 years ago, nobody will be expecting a Kampung Boy like me to step away to other place other than Ipoh. And frankly, I was quite reluctant to leave the peace little Ipoh (T.T Ipoh’s no longer harmony now, though…), because I will be leaving my PS2 behind, and breaking my oath with my form 5 friends that we will stick together through thick and thin.
How am I going to stay alone? What if JPA kicked me during this 2 years? What if the students there are all big meanie… What if… What if…
And I stepped into my cousin’s car with all those what if… in my mind.
And frankly I like and really appreciated the two years of being here, though there are more hardships to face, more emotional problem popping out of nowhere, more clothes to wash, more unlucky things happened (knocked my head, spoilt my laptop, injured my right hand, and injured my right ankle…there’s always something every semester). And I’m glad that I didn’t fly in the first year, because I would be missing lots of valuable lessons in life if I did.
Nevertheless, those experiences were cool in one way, and by facing those problems alone for the first time, I’m glad that I had benefitted from those. I still remember the first day I came here. I was so worried because my JPA application was not complete that it bugged me for whole week. Now? I might be wondering that why that Miss Yuinyi (or sometimes liz, or CJ ) would had emo-ed for petty issues, almost forgetting that I actually behaved like them before.
I learned a lot in INTEC, I learned to play basket after Wei young taught me (NOTE: DUN JUDGE THE BOOK BY ITS COVER, OR IN THIS CASE, HEIGHT). I learned the arts of DoTA thanks to Chau Kee and Sam. I learned to karaoke thanks to Kian Hui. I played futsal thanks to Chin Jian. I learned to be crazy and gossip thanks to Kia Tzun and the Gang. I learned to be a less meanie thanks to some people. I learned to socialize with other races thanks to my ex roommates and current roommates (Adib , Kuteng (girder), Nouri (che-ne-ne, I prefer calling you burung nuri though), and Azizi )etc. I learned about computer registry, RAM, thanks to Hayeri and Michael. And I learned to emo because of Liz and Yuinyi. Lolz
And I started to know the meaning of what love is because of you, my special someone.
I know you might not be reading this, but I really owe you thanks a lot. Thanks for reminding me how many laptops and handphone I loss (T.T). Thanks for being friend despite what happened, for making me a little bit more matured. Thanks for making me realize that my life wasn’t all that horrible. Thanks for cheering me up with a 2-buck ice cream despite me not keeping my promise. You really have changed me, and though I can’t really tell what it is, I know that my life’s not going to be same if I had not met you.
And if by any chance you see this, I would like to say a big THANK YOU to you, and…if after years later both of us are still single, I would try my luck again, (if by any chance you are owned, then I’ll be sincerely pray for your relationship and find a gal better than you =p.)
But regrettably, some old habits were still with me despite these two years. I still lost my things; I still like to tease people, to the extent of enraging people sometimes; I still like to complain (I tried not to) and etc. etc.
And in this last 4 months, I am glad to say that I didn’t hand in a white sheet. It was full of color, full of happiness, and sorrow, full of wisdom, foolishness and immaturity. Full of fun and sad, enlightening and depressing experiences.
And I’ll not going to toss this last 4 months into nothing. There are already plans planned by the Florida gangs. Lecturer picnic tomorrow, class cinema session, Florida trips, MMS…..guess what, I all in ( though it means my pocket gonna be low low low low……)
Whether I am happy or emo-ing, angry or whatsoever, I won’t forget how this two years had shaped me and finally…
Thanks for admitting me to INTEC and thanks for coloring my life in this two years, and specially thank you for appearing in my life.
P.S. ( Almost forget Thanks for Yuin Yi for inspire me to blog, cuz I blogged after I’m so interested reading ur blog.)
Saturday, April 11, 2009
*sob* uni......
One second or one mark might not make a difference...
Is that really so?
In olympic, the "one second" determines who's the winner and the loser. It determined who's the one that will get lots of glory and who's will be remain unknown as an athlete...
And *sob...*
I can't get into wisconsin becuz my toefl is 99 INSTEAD of 100
= = sob sob
That means the uni left for me is minnesota though...
So, for people that are going to minnesota, CHANGE UR UNI IF U DUN WAN ME TO HAUNT YOU!!!
sob...sob...
At least...geographical location of minnesota is better than wisconsin.
But still, I'm a little bit mad...
cuz that dreaded one mark kicked my admission to wisconsin AWAYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*(if only i could speak better during the day of TOEFL)*
Is that really so?
In olympic, the "one second" determines who's the winner and the loser. It determined who's the one that will get lots of glory and who's will be remain unknown as an athlete...
And *sob...*
I can't get into wisconsin becuz my toefl is 99 INSTEAD of 100
= = sob sob
That means the uni left for me is minnesota though...
So, for people that are going to minnesota, CHANGE UR UNI IF U DUN WAN ME TO HAUNT YOU!!!
sob...sob...
At least...geographical location of minnesota is better than wisconsin.
But still, I'm a little bit mad...
cuz that dreaded one mark kicked my admission to wisconsin AWAYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*(if only i could speak better during the day of TOEFL)*
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Uni...
One hour later, I'm going to submit the dreaded form that asked my uni choice...the choice that will change my life in US, or even, my life as a whole.
Flashback...
3 weeks ago, my friends in Ipoh were facing the dilemma like me. Slightly different though, they are choosing which local Uni to go for their course...
Frankly admit, their decision-making should be easier. They had 8 choices, and only around 20 unis to choose.
Yet, I believe they had been discussing which uni to go, for around...weeks and doing research around...
There's one particular conversation I remember
Friend A: What Uni to choose le?
Friend B: Why don't we ask Jin Khang le? He's going US. Perhaps he had idea? After all, he also had to choose uni among the hundreds university in US.
Friend A: Jin Khang, what uni u go?
JK: Minnesota Kua
Friend: Why choose that Uni?
JK: ......Dunno le. Cuz not bad kua
Frannkly admit, I had not done any research for my uni choice (except for rank-checking). And now only I know Minnesota and Wisconsin are COLD COLD COLD state while Texas is a HOT HOT HOT state.
And I am completely speechless when my friend asked "why choose that uni."
Actually, I chose minnesota and wisconsin becuz...
flashback...
One year ago, the night before SAT
FY: If you wanted the test center to send score to your uni for free, you must tell them which uni you wanted to send by tonight.
JK: Huh??? But I am clueless on what Uni to go to begin with
FY: You have to tell the SAT testcenter by tonight. If not, u have to pay for the delivery fee
JK:OMGWTFSTFU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And on that night, I rushed to the nearest CC to input the Uni-s name I wanted to go. I remembered my roommate was applying to Northwestern, and I stumbled the name "Minnesota" on OSSP at that day and I somehow remember FY wrote "purdue" for her uni choice.
I had no other idea what Uni might be elligible for me, so my choice for uni during that time...
-Minnesota, purdue, northwestern
And turned out that Northwestern was too high class, and purdue kicked mechanical engineering....
I made the decision to go Uni of wisconsin on a similar manner, during the time when we had to submit our three choice of uni to OSSP.
And I made the decision to go Uni of Texas after knowing UiUC kicked me out, and there's 2 week before all Uni reached deadline...
Haiz,,,
All my uni choice were made on haste...
Just hope that there's no mistake made......
Flashback...
3 weeks ago, my friends in Ipoh were facing the dilemma like me. Slightly different though, they are choosing which local Uni to go for their course...
Frankly admit, their decision-making should be easier. They had 8 choices, and only around 20 unis to choose.
Yet, I believe they had been discussing which uni to go, for around...weeks and doing research around...
There's one particular conversation I remember
Friend A: What Uni to choose le?
Friend B: Why don't we ask Jin Khang le? He's going US. Perhaps he had idea? After all, he also had to choose uni among the hundreds university in US.
Friend A: Jin Khang, what uni u go?
JK: Minnesota Kua
Friend: Why choose that Uni?
JK: ......Dunno le. Cuz not bad kua
Frannkly admit, I had not done any research for my uni choice (except for rank-checking). And now only I know Minnesota and Wisconsin are COLD COLD COLD state while Texas is a HOT HOT HOT state.
And I am completely speechless when my friend asked "why choose that uni."
Actually, I chose minnesota and wisconsin becuz...
flashback...
One year ago, the night before SAT
FY: If you wanted the test center to send score to your uni for free, you must tell them which uni you wanted to send by tonight.
JK: Huh??? But I am clueless on what Uni to go to begin with
FY: You have to tell the SAT testcenter by tonight. If not, u have to pay for the delivery fee
JK:OMGWTFSTFU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And on that night, I rushed to the nearest CC to input the Uni-s name I wanted to go. I remembered my roommate was applying to Northwestern, and I stumbled the name "Minnesota" on OSSP at that day and I somehow remember FY wrote "purdue" for her uni choice.
I had no other idea what Uni might be elligible for me, so my choice for uni during that time...
-Minnesota, purdue, northwestern
And turned out that Northwestern was too high class, and purdue kicked mechanical engineering....
I made the decision to go Uni of wisconsin on a similar manner, during the time when we had to submit our three choice of uni to OSSP.
And I made the decision to go Uni of Texas after knowing UiUC kicked me out, and there's 2 week before all Uni reached deadline...
Haiz,,,
All my uni choice were made on haste...
Just hope that there's no mistake made......
Monday, April 6, 2009
Hypocripsy- the sixth
Are you a hypocrite?
All of us, to some extent, are hypocrites.
We tend to think ourselves in the bright-side, as a good person, and sometimes neglecting your own rights and demands because of that.
But it's nothing wrong to be hypocrite, because as human, we are bounded to be flawed sometimes, like it or not, it is hard for us to be person as inscribed in our "Moral education" book we studied since we were small.
And seriously, it shucks when you tried to be what you are not...
Dun believe in me?
Guys, let's try a few situations
1.) Do you watch/interested/ with porn/sexy gals with little clothing?
Seriously, when this question is asked, most guys will look at you, as if you are the dreaded sexmaniac roaming around, and in the process, seemed to depict themselves as a saint.
This question stuck me when I saw my friend being joked for one week for downloading porn using GE...and initially I was part of the people that disgusted at the friends of mine, but deep inside...
I,no, we all, are interested with this kind of stuff (it's in guys hormone...for the sake of errmm...continuation of offspring) , just that somehow when we were small, we were somehow taught that "porn is evil." We wished not to be associated with this evil, and therefore we rejected porn like plague. (even though we actually peeked on the laptop while our friends are watching".
So, what do we think of the guys that answered no for the first question?
Three possibilities
1. He 's a hypocrite.
2. He should consult a doctor, for there is something wrong with his body...
3. He's a gay.
And to people that chose yes for the first question, congratulate you for at least not being hypocrite. One thing though, if your friends labeled you as a sex-craving monster after saying yes, you have just one thing to say to them
"stupid"
P.S.- I didn't download and watch porn cuz I had better things to do. However, I had to admit that I am not completely reaction less when seeing some "special scene" in a 18 rated movie. But i definitely didn't acknowledge people that shouted around saying I watch porn everyday...
2nd situation
2.) Who's the one that be the leader?
This is a questions we encountered since we were small. It was actually seen everywhere. The term "leader: can be substituted by the word "chairman, class rep, project director, and etc etc...
And according to my observation for 13 years as a human. When asked this questions, 99% of people will fall to silent.
Of course there are people that avoid to be leader, as they prefer to be a follower instead (an unofficial statistic, 95% are born follower and 5% are born as leader)
Hw about the 5%?
Believe me, i actually saw people that wanted the seat of leader so much that they think no one else is the better person for the seat, yet uttered none when this question asked.
Why?
Because they are imbued with this silly concept of "it's not right to fight with others for things." "We should wait for people agreement- democracy, they said."
Problem is, they are not really as "humble" as they "supposed to be". Therefore, you could see this situation...
1.) They will wait for their friend to appoint his name, and when chosen, he will make out a face of "I'm forced", and when it was time for speech, he spoke a lot...(wiv a paper of speech that he readied last few nights ago )
2.) This "wanna-be leader" is not chosen, and he will ended up directing the new leader. He'll be the one saying "anyone else can be a better leader, " but when you asked why not him, he'll just dumping excuses
Those scene were so so so so familiar to me, i believe.
Conclusion
I believe that hypocrites were everywhere, even in a deep side of me, I agreed that I'm a hypocrite to some extent. So, if you see people that said something like this I dun need people to celebrate my birthday or etc.
You should have been able to sense the big foxy tail behind
All of us, to some extent, are hypocrites.
We tend to think ourselves in the bright-side, as a good person, and sometimes neglecting your own rights and demands because of that.
But it's nothing wrong to be hypocrite, because as human, we are bounded to be flawed sometimes, like it or not, it is hard for us to be person as inscribed in our "Moral education" book we studied since we were small.
And seriously, it shucks when you tried to be what you are not...
Dun believe in me?
Guys, let's try a few situations
1.) Do you watch/interested/ with porn/sexy gals with little clothing?
Seriously, when this question is asked, most guys will look at you, as if you are the dreaded sexmaniac roaming around, and in the process, seemed to depict themselves as a saint.
This question stuck me when I saw my friend being joked for one week for downloading porn using GE...and initially I was part of the people that disgusted at the friends of mine, but deep inside...
I,no, we all, are interested with this kind of stuff (it's in guys hormone...for the sake of errmm...continuation of offspring) , just that somehow when we were small, we were somehow taught that "porn is evil." We wished not to be associated with this evil, and therefore we rejected porn like plague. (even though we actually peeked on the laptop while our friends are watching".
So, what do we think of the guys that answered no for the first question?
Three possibilities
1. He 's a hypocrite.
2. He should consult a doctor, for there is something wrong with his body...
3. He's a gay.
And to people that chose yes for the first question, congratulate you for at least not being hypocrite. One thing though, if your friends labeled you as a sex-craving monster after saying yes, you have just one thing to say to them
"stupid"
P.S.- I didn't download and watch porn cuz I had better things to do. However, I had to admit that I am not completely reaction less when seeing some "special scene" in a 18 rated movie. But i definitely didn't acknowledge people that shouted around saying I watch porn everyday...
2nd situation
2.) Who's the one that be the leader?
This is a questions we encountered since we were small. It was actually seen everywhere. The term "leader: can be substituted by the word "chairman, class rep, project director, and etc etc...
And according to my observation for 13 years as a human. When asked this questions, 99% of people will fall to silent.
Of course there are people that avoid to be leader, as they prefer to be a follower instead (an unofficial statistic, 95% are born follower and 5% are born as leader)
Hw about the 5%?
Believe me, i actually saw people that wanted the seat of leader so much that they think no one else is the better person for the seat, yet uttered none when this question asked.
Why?
Because they are imbued with this silly concept of "it's not right to fight with others for things." "We should wait for people agreement- democracy, they said."
Problem is, they are not really as "humble" as they "supposed to be". Therefore, you could see this situation...
1.) They will wait for their friend to appoint his name, and when chosen, he will make out a face of "I'm forced", and when it was time for speech, he spoke a lot...(wiv a paper of speech that he readied last few nights ago )
2.) This "wanna-be leader" is not chosen, and he will ended up directing the new leader. He'll be the one saying "anyone else can be a better leader, " but when you asked why not him, he'll just dumping excuses
Those scene were so so so so familiar to me, i believe.
Conclusion
I believe that hypocrites were everywhere, even in a deep side of me, I agreed that I'm a hypocrite to some extent. So, if you see people that said something like this I dun need people to celebrate my birthday or etc.
You should have been able to sense the big foxy tail behind
Friday, April 3, 2009
Imagination - the seventh
Kenshin, outnumberd by his assailant, each carrying unimaginable weapons. All of them strike, only to find the samurai Kenshin had disappeared, the next second, sword flashes through, and the evil lied dead, and Kenshin went back to his dojo, with his Kauru-Chan awaiting him...
Well, this is a scene of Samurai X, an old japanese anime......
Sometimes I might imagine myself as Kenshin, slashing those badass with just mere flick of sword, and live with the stubborn yet sensitive Kauru in peace... or sometimes...
Imagine myself as an unknown assassin, walking in the midst of night, exterminating those evil dread root in the society, and the evils that had escaped unjust...and disappeared in the darkness of night.
But imagination is imaginations, reality is reality. I was just a student, definitely not good lucking. Particularly expert in nothing and that's it. You won't differentiate me in the midst of society, an ordinary lad.
And that's why I hate imagination. Yet, in the darkest time in the alone street, imagination is the only thing that accompanied me.
Ya know one thing, imagination is only things for weak, as people with strong will never imagine, they make their imagination reality.
Often, bubbles had to be prickled before u are bring to higher place. Like it or not, a bubble will prickle one day
And I am at least grateful, for i learn to know imagination as pure imagination. Thought how nice it is in ur dream, it was reality.
I'll never let the mist of imagination to blind me, as mist, after all, is a sign of impermanent. o one can live in a dream.
You might be Kauru, but I'll never be Kenshinn. That's all I know...
Yet, if there's a need of protection, i will arise as Kenshin to protect you,
Though the sword I had was just mere air, and I'm not skillful as the real Kenshin as be.
and how futile the situation might be
And I will disappear in thin air before you mistaken me for the real kenshin in life
Imagination..
imagination...
Well, this is a scene of Samurai X, an old japanese anime......
Sometimes I might imagine myself as Kenshin, slashing those badass with just mere flick of sword, and live with the stubborn yet sensitive Kauru in peace... or sometimes...
Imagine myself as an unknown assassin, walking in the midst of night, exterminating those evil dread root in the society, and the evils that had escaped unjust...and disappeared in the darkness of night.
But imagination is imaginations, reality is reality. I was just a student, definitely not good lucking. Particularly expert in nothing and that's it. You won't differentiate me in the midst of society, an ordinary lad.
And that's why I hate imagination. Yet, in the darkest time in the alone street, imagination is the only thing that accompanied me.
Ya know one thing, imagination is only things for weak, as people with strong will never imagine, they make their imagination reality.
Often, bubbles had to be prickled before u are bring to higher place. Like it or not, a bubble will prickle one day
And I am at least grateful, for i learn to know imagination as pure imagination. Thought how nice it is in ur dream, it was reality.
I'll never let the mist of imagination to blind me, as mist, after all, is a sign of impermanent. o one can live in a dream.
You might be Kauru, but I'll never be Kenshinn. That's all I know...
Yet, if there's a need of protection, i will arise as Kenshin to protect you,
Though the sword I had was just mere air, and I'm not skillful as the real Kenshin as be.
and how futile the situation might be
And I will disappear in thin air before you mistaken me for the real kenshin in life
Imagination..
imagination...
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Termination button activated
This blog will be turned into ashes after 7posts (why 7, cuz i like 7)
First of all, I started to hate myself being wordy and I didn't really like upload pictures...
Yep, I'm more like an author than blogger. You could have said that, but seriously, there's a lot more reason why I think this blogpost shouldn't be here...
(I'm not emo-ing, seriously, and somehow I'm happy cuz this "term emo" did not appear in INTEC anymore...) phew...
Well, after this two years, I had knew myself more, partly because of blogging, that I realize that how narrow it is to view something from your own perspective. Blogging about my problem makes me able to see what are the problem really is in essence, and well, the post is deleted next second.
So, this blogpost was meant for myself than others, I guess...
But whatever it is, I knew who I really feel, who I really am, and to celebrate this, i'm going to verbal abuse this blog in the next few post...
P.S.- After the American talent show, i fall in love with taylor swift's song, -love story. The gal just sang the song well
"I still had feelings on her and I won't run and escape from the problem, like i used to do. Whatever it is, may you be well and happy."
First of all, I started to hate myself being wordy and I didn't really like upload pictures...
Yep, I'm more like an author than blogger. You could have said that, but seriously, there's a lot more reason why I think this blogpost shouldn't be here...
(I'm not emo-ing, seriously, and somehow I'm happy cuz this "term emo" did not appear in INTEC anymore...) phew...
Well, after this two years, I had knew myself more, partly because of blogging, that I realize that how narrow it is to view something from your own perspective. Blogging about my problem makes me able to see what are the problem really is in essence, and well, the post is deleted next second.
So, this blogpost was meant for myself than others, I guess...
But whatever it is, I knew who I really feel, who I really am, and to celebrate this, i'm going to verbal abuse this blog in the next few post...
P.S.- After the American talent show, i fall in love with taylor swift's song, -love story. The gal just sang the song well
"I still had feelings on her and I won't run and escape from the problem, like i used to do. Whatever it is, may you be well and happy."
* Really didn’t update my blog for quite some time * (and this post was outdated either)
Right now, I am struggling for the bunches of integration. Before this it was d d d (dy/dx), now it was f f f (f)…and sooner, I will deal a lot of F things again (yep, Fucking vector Field and Fucking magnetic Field) revisit my old haunt. Not to mention Mr.K “beloved” beloved and Physic test. (And I can sense my incoming failure on business test…).
And two quiz incoming tomorrow =.=
And what am I doing now? Reading beloved? Nope! Calculus? Nope!. Dota-ing? Nope either. I’m blogging now, partly becuz of the dreaded coffee I drank, and more importantly, I think I had a new revelation whacking my head, so “important” that I decided to blog about it…
(Note, I was writing this piece at 1.50a.m. on my new laptop, when I should be sleeping …)
America Indulgence Week
Seriously…
I can’t believe I’m participating almost every activities in the indulgence week. American got Talent, Halloween, Parade, Luav Party, shouting with the Florida students, shrieking (that’s pui yin and Sanddy) and boo-ing at the same time. (Except for the dodgeball, nobody’s asking me = =
Seriously…
I can’t believe I missed out all those things last year, including the parade. I acted uninterested on the parade last year (that’s honolulu class), forgetting to prepare the things that I should prepare, and ended up carrying the banner. I believed I had at least muttered some “Tuuting rated” curse word during that time. “Fudge you, such a waste of time”
*wince* I think I’m a jerk last year,(maybe even now) . esp. for being a wet blanket. Maybe I thought it’s cool to stay at my room dota-ing and complaining every single details to the microscopic level…
Seriously seriously…
I can’t believe that I would be part of the parade, ordering people what to do, discussing and even role-played one of the characters (though it’s only sticking a big card on my mouth, cuz that’s how the character looks like = =). Also I can’t believe I would shout with my friends when there’s a performance and boo-ing the dreadful judge for giving a big X for Muhaimin.
And many many more things that I could haven’t done, many things that I regarded as stupid before…
Well, for some people, shouting is an act of immature, going for those events are a waste of time, a waste of money. Maybe the Luav party is not really a good one, maybe INTEC singers really shucks, maybe climbing the tank was stupid, and etc etc…
I’m sure about one thing, either they haven’t go for those things, or they went, but complained throughout the whole event like a pile of s***. I am one of those “sporting” peoples last year, and I’m now ashamed for being that last time. The lesson I learned is…
If you learned to enjoy more, and complain less, there might be some fun within you that you can’t see because of wearing a spectacle of complain. Well, maybe America got Talent was lame, as what someone said, but I’ll never realize Jamal was such a good singer (and Nouri’s damn bitchy) if I haven’t go for the party. I would never realize other little fun things in my life had I chose to remain “rational” all the time.
So what if there’s a quiz. If there’s a quiz tomorrow, just study two days before. Whatever it is, I am not going to let DoTA and dreadful calculus to be the only thing in my college life, cuz I’ll be regretting years later.
Don’t let rational get your head most of the times. I am not that crazy, as compared to some of my Florida friends that rented a 45buck suit just for the Halloween show and painting the whole face blue just for the parade. Whatever is it, thanks for teaching me to be “irrational” sometimes. Count me in if there’s other activities that I can join…
*wince* as long as it didn’t cost that much money…
Right now, I am struggling for the bunches of integration. Before this it was d d d (dy/dx), now it was f f f (f)…and sooner, I will deal a lot of F things again (yep, Fucking vector Field and Fucking magnetic Field) revisit my old haunt. Not to mention Mr.K “beloved” beloved and Physic test. (And I can sense my incoming failure on business test…).
And two quiz incoming tomorrow =.=
And what am I doing now? Reading beloved? Nope! Calculus? Nope!. Dota-ing? Nope either. I’m blogging now, partly becuz of the dreaded coffee I drank, and more importantly, I think I had a new revelation whacking my head, so “important” that I decided to blog about it…
(Note, I was writing this piece at 1.50a.m. on my new laptop, when I should be sleeping …)
America Indulgence Week
Seriously…
I can’t believe I’m participating almost every activities in the indulgence week. American got Talent, Halloween, Parade, Luav Party, shouting with the Florida students, shrieking (that’s pui yin and Sanddy) and boo-ing at the same time. (Except for the dodgeball, nobody’s asking me = =
Seriously…
I can’t believe I missed out all those things last year, including the parade. I acted uninterested on the parade last year (that’s honolulu class), forgetting to prepare the things that I should prepare, and ended up carrying the banner. I believed I had at least muttered some “Tuuting rated” curse word during that time. “Fudge you, such a waste of time”
*wince* I think I’m a jerk last year,(maybe even now) . esp. for being a wet blanket. Maybe I thought it’s cool to stay at my room dota-ing and complaining every single details to the microscopic level…
Seriously seriously…
I can’t believe that I would be part of the parade, ordering people what to do, discussing and even role-played one of the characters (though it’s only sticking a big card on my mouth, cuz that’s how the character looks like = =). Also I can’t believe I would shout with my friends when there’s a performance and boo-ing the dreadful judge for giving a big X for Muhaimin.
And many many more things that I could haven’t done, many things that I regarded as stupid before…
Well, for some people, shouting is an act of immature, going for those events are a waste of time, a waste of money. Maybe the Luav party is not really a good one, maybe INTEC singers really shucks, maybe climbing the tank was stupid, and etc etc…
I’m sure about one thing, either they haven’t go for those things, or they went, but complained throughout the whole event like a pile of s***. I am one of those “sporting” peoples last year, and I’m now ashamed for being that last time. The lesson I learned is…
If you learned to enjoy more, and complain less, there might be some fun within you that you can’t see because of wearing a spectacle of complain. Well, maybe America got Talent was lame, as what someone said, but I’ll never realize Jamal was such a good singer (and Nouri’s damn bitchy) if I haven’t go for the party. I would never realize other little fun things in my life had I chose to remain “rational” all the time.
So what if there’s a quiz. If there’s a quiz tomorrow, just study two days before. Whatever it is, I am not going to let DoTA and dreadful calculus to be the only thing in my college life, cuz I’ll be regretting years later.
Don’t let rational get your head most of the times. I am not that crazy, as compared to some of my Florida friends that rented a 45buck suit just for the Halloween show and painting the whole face blue just for the parade. Whatever is it, thanks for teaching me to be “irrational” sometimes. Count me in if there’s other activities that I can join…
*wince* as long as it didn’t cost that much money…
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