Tomorrow marked the beginning of the final test, and I'm just finnished 1 /4 of my calculus revision, with 3 more to go..., and i can sense impending doom in my final = =.
I really wanted to audit Cal3, but the mark i get from my test 4 made me ponder...is it a waste when you stil have a chance to score an OK GPA in cal 3?
And Mr.Kamal words rang in my brain = " I salute those people that had finnished cal3." After all, we had spent 3 sem, all sour and bitter, it should be ended with this final test tomorrow.
While for other test, frankly I had not preparation, so i guess I'm good as dead...in this next 4 days
= = still wan go online somemore...
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Once, there were good times when ACTP guys will sit together, emo together, rant everything they had in their mind, and walked in every single corner of shopping complex. We are able to stand under one identity, ACTP. We worked through thick and thin in most things, from strangers we became friends, we gossiped, everything. We crapped, we organize party together and etc
We emo together, we sad together, and we always know there's a shoulder when you're sad, and even at most times, it turned out your sadness become our sadness. We share joy and sadness together.
I always call them as stupid, for worrying things that others should worry.
But little do we realize how lucky we are during that time.
Starting in this semester, it seemed that strange things started to happen. Though in the surface, nothing happened, as a silent storm, yet, deep inside, unimaginabe storm commenced underground, and it even shocked me to know those things.
It seemed that there's an invisible barrier started to form among some of us, and though how fragile the reasons is, the barrier were suprisingly strong. Unknowing awkwardness started to form, and greeting certain people was suddenly a hard thing to do.
And even from my room, the good old swings under my room were never filled with joyous people playing swings, or emo-ing people sitting there chatting.
What had happened among us?
Regardless of the reasons might be, can't you guys just let go of those difference among you, and embraced the friendships like the old days. If the issues were really serious, what's the worth of your good old memories?
Didn't u guys realized that you had reached the time when friendship started to get scarce?
I'm lucky to still have some friends to crap with me, but from a third view of perspective, I really hope that you guys will get well soon.
It started to remind a past conversation of mine.
Y: You know, girls are really simple in mind.
JK: But, you'll never know how complex the world might be.
Y: A person with simple mind is always happy, cuz they never had to think much.
I was laughing at her naivity last sem, but come to think abt it, I'll prefer to believe in her simplicity , despite how complex the world might be...
I hope some of you get enlightened
2 comments:
There are things that you don't understand and it is not going to be just as simple as 1+1...
If anyone wants to make it simple, of course I would welcome that, not to say that I love to make things complicated. Sometimes, you have got to look at the world and think again what you saw. Things are like that... Accept it and welcome anything that comes. What is gone is gone. But there's still a chance it might sprout new again soon... Well, I hope I don't sound like a bad guy nowadays and I really dislike knowing someone label me bad. I know how some of those people think about me and what can I do? I already did my best and people still want to blame me? Please, simple minded people don't judge that much, and please don't cause further misunderstanding. After all, nobody is that simple minded.
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