Can I survive before the spring arrives?

"When winter comes, it indicates that spring would come soon,"

But can I survive before the spring arrives, or I will be dead frozen before I can see the blooming flower of spring...

Empirical report , CTU assignment, dossier, final exams are coming here, and before even the wars commerce, I had no more energy to face those horrible predicament.

Would I be the same person again, trapped in an evil circle of regretting--- regret-forget-play-then regret-forget-play--

The circles continue.

I could have give a damn shit of those final exams, leave those assignments for others, and in the end opt all the subjects that I have failed miserably...

I could have do that...everyone could have do that...But I know, I would be completely insane if I had done this... Maybe, I'm crazy.

There's always a voice beside me that tell me to give those stuff a damn shit, and there's always another voice that tell me to face all those predicament. There's a voice that tell me spring is ahead, and another voice that tell me "Freak, there's a big avalanche in front of you." There's a voice that tell me that I had comrades to help, and there's always another voice that tell me "You're alone, and success is no where by clinging on someone else."

Oh god (if there is one), I must be hallucinating lately.

But however it might be, the countdown of the storm is approaching as I wasted my time here, blogging. Surely, these few days later is going to be another one of many avalanches in my life.
But whatever it is,

I shall stride through this avalanche alone with a trusty weapon with me, and my strength is not going to be from a mighty god, nor friends and family, but the desperate of survival in this highly competitive world...

And may I able to still see the blooming of sakura after this...