A new semester...new?

New..?

Today I fall asleep on my first day class, which is really an epic occurrence. The class was only 50 minutes, yet the professor hopped into the textbook after introducing the course, blabbering about elements and etc which I had no idea at all...It was just too sudden...and thus to prevent myself from going insanity, my brain made a move- dozing off...And right now, I was regretting for being asleep in the class...after all, falling asleep in a first day class is really an epic occurence, perhaps, an omen indicating my doom on this course >.<

A new semester...huh? I ever doubt it was new. Perhaps the courses had changed, perhaps the professors changed, but the unfamiliar face around me, the incoming exams and homework, disappointments and resentments, all of those, are just those old things I faced last semesters.

The only difference is however - I anticipated those stuff coming.

And while waiting for next class, I did the same thing I do in the semester before - sitting alone with a computer and wasting my time by surfing the net.

Isn't it the same?

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Neo Genesis Evangelion

Perhaps I could blame my sleepy first day to this anime, which I finished in two days...It was a really weird anime, it was supposed to be an anime about robots fighting to save the world, but the ending was really weird, and it makes me wonder...does the the ending has any correlation with the previous episode?

In the ending scene, the main character, a 14 years old boy, was bombarded with a series of questions about himself, and while the main character attempted to answer each of them, each of his answers creates more difficult questions that puzzled the main character more. 

And while I was cursing WTH when the ending starts, I couldn't bring myself to close the ending and take a nap. I had to admit, I was anticipating the answer from main character each time a question was bombarded to him. And due to these anticipations, I stayed and finished the ending - even though the ending was not some robot fighting scene, but more of like a Q@A session within the main character.I started to find myself resembling this character - fear of loneliness, yet feeling comfortable during alone times, seeking for approval in life, blaming on people for own problem, and not facing my true self with a honest heart.

While the main character was liberated in the end, I was not. A shell...was better to me after all... 

I must say..this anime is going to bug my mind for quite some time....

Dota? Anime?

I had made resolutions to desert anime, dota, games and etc for the sake of study. But none of them was done successfully. However, thanks to these 18 days of consecutively dota and anime, I couldn't bring myself to play another dota game now. Nor can I watched another series of anime, after having my mind bugged with Evangelion...

Seems like the only thing I can do is study...

Well, so I guess I ditch dota and anime for now. Study seems to be a more viable choice than these two.

And well~~~maybe to make my study more enjoyable, I guess I will aim for a 4.00 cgpa.