Just some random ramble

* BTN passed faster than I thought,* *head shooking*

Stories in Life

Without awaring how time passed by, Summer seemed to approached...Everything seemed to happen to fast...everything changed...from a student in Malaysia to a future graduate in US, from a hot-headed kid to a cold heart and minded person, from mature to immature or vice versa, and sometimes from an unsocial person to actively sociable person and etc...

Quoted from a book : "If you compile a person's lifestory in a book, no matter how boring the person might be, it can be summed out to be a good read".And my 18 years life as a teenager, I wondered what type of book will it be if it's actually complied to a book? Taking a few twists in life, facing a few things that others didn't, to sum up, life was not really a bed of roses, but however, this is the beauty of life. It was through unhappiness we cherished happiness, from enemies we appreciated friends, and etc, it was because of shackles that we seeked freedom.

And for the obstacles in the past, I had to say that I HATE all of you, but at the same time I know those obstacles integrated with part of me, and without any of them, I would not be who I am now...

My story will never be a fairy tale, but I can guarantee that it will be a good read.

* And if you guys really wondered whether I really undergo much obstacles in life, I must say, I am lucky compared to some other people, but I believed that I had undergo things that most of you might not have experienced * (Self -obsessive complexion, duh)

Minnesota Twin Cities


For your information, this is the uni that I will be studying in US.

Although this university is trashed, feared, less-preferred by most of my friends, but I guess that I will be settling in this university, like it or not *because it is just my last choice* . And the reasons this university is less-preferred because...it's a Malaysia village, and the ranking is not really good compared to his counterpart university -UiUC, wisconsin, University of Texas, Purdue, Pennsylvania state and etc... (for my susah cari uni major = mech. engineering)

Actually, I am close to jealous and scared when I knew most of my engineering friends were admitted either in purdue, wisconsin and UiUC. Those universities were the unis that either banned me from entering their uni, or kicked me because my toefl score is 1 MARKS lower...and I know that I am going to study in an inferior university, and while the rest might happy for their wisconsin or UiUC, I had to be satisfied with my minnesota Twin Cities.

True is, I am jealous with them, at the same time also knowing that I will be studying alone...

Until one afternoon, I get enlightened ^.^

I realized that whatever uni I get into, it's not going to be a factor for me not to success, and instead of lamenting for my uni, I should be focusing how to carve up a path of success for my major. I will disprove that Minnesota shucks, disprove that Unis itself is really that important, I am the key to determine my success, not those unis that had chose to reject me.

And guess what? I prevailed despite studying in schools that is not well known - or even bad reputations. And why does this uni make a difference?

So what if the ranking shucks? As long as I 'll get some decent job experience once I came out.

So what if It's a malaysia village? I think there are much more Americans there compared to Malaysian =p

So what if nobody's following me to there? I believed that I am indepedent enough not to actually died without friends, and well, it also gave me a reason to have a fresh start.

Minnesota is a big campus, a city, a research uni with decent equipment, and though the lecturers might sucked, I believed that it's not going to make a difference.

Minnesota, I'm coiming!

Path

I believed that I had been troubled with it for quite a some time, hope and disappointment always arise, happiness or sad always ensues.

I think I had reached a path when false hope and bitter disappointment waiting in front should I want to continue.

I had walked too far, to the point I started to lost

I had injured quite a few, though I learn from those

I had been promised in a "what if" bubble for too long, a flower in the mirror, a moon in a river

So, 5 hours before summer started

I guess it's time for me to stop walking this path,

And perhaps take a break.