Friday, November 27, 2009

A story to share (part 0)

Oh, today is thanksgiving. However, instead of engaging in massive shopping or eating this guy below~ ~


I stayed in my room, having an Otaku life of watching anime, and woke up late, missing the chance to have my free thanksgiving meal. Well, not that I care about turkey, because after all...I ate a turkey before~~


Well, at least it's still turkey : ). And it costs one buck to have such a wholesale meal. I think I should stock some of these guys next time I go shopping. However..., speaking about shopping, I unfortunately in a situation that could only be described by this picture...~~~




While friends of mine might go to Gucci, Prada Jimmy Choo shopping spree, my dream of getting a decent desk lamp, a 8GB memory card and rice cooker with a cheap price came into bubble when the bank account showed a cute 12.00USD in my TCF bank account.

So huh?! JPA didn't bank in my allowance after all. And as I imagined my friends enjoying themselves in Chicago, or shopping spree in Albertville, I was forced to stay in my own room, alone while others enjoying good company and using those money for a shipping spree. It's a competition of time, whether I will get my money before I starved to death or before I was unable to pay my rent...

Hatred...Jealousy...Feelings of injustice soaked into my mind as I stayed in my room in this holiday...well, this image suits the best


                                                           

Well, why am I posting this pic?

And thus after this introduction post, I shall introduce and tell you the story of mine.

P.S. Guess who the girl is, an Anime character, and also part of reason I missed my free turkey =p.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

T . T

Sorry, I have been wanting to go Chicago to meet all of you, but sadly, It just felt wrong when I had to ask people to borrow money for rent while going Chicago at the same time...and this was the painful choice I had to made....

Missing those penn state people, in this last 3 months in INTEC, we had really good times together, regardless of DoTA, or other thing else, I really wanna see that naughty skeleton face, the innocent boon hui look, the preverted Ben, the Sam's evil smirk, and the hoong Ching 's Z looking attitude...

And also wei young, the guy that could be angel and devil at same time, Chin Jian, Jia Mun, and etc and had a good complains and debate of life...

There are many people I wanted to see and talk too, instead of get stuck in room in Thanksgiving. Nevertheless, and sorry, I couldn't make it.

May my wishes with you all.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

重要的东西总是难以发现-银魂EP 104

A:

我孤独一人并不是我的错。
我什么都没有错。
都是无能,因为他们太无能了。
我和他们居住的世界不一样
我是被选中的人。
无法接受孤独,而将孤独的责人怪罪他人。
害怕被人拒绝,于是就先自己拒绝自己。
害怕受到伤害,于是便演上爱上孤独的戏。
心里便形成个围墙。
为此,唯独想将才华昭示于天下的表现欲。
日欲不断膨胀,希望可以得到别人的认可。
即时得到认可也得不到满足。
我能更有所就,我和你们不一样。
我要让你们体会到我的存在。

B:
你所追寻的,并不是可以了解你的人

A:
不知不觉我就忘记了
我真正想得到的
不是名誉,钱财,地位,才能这些。
甚至不是能了解自己的人
我只不过希望有人能在我身边
只是希望有人能关注我
只是讨厌孤独一个人
只是。。。。
只是想要能从正面真正接受我的同伴
从正面看着我
想要能从正面和我交手的人
只是想要得到同伴。
我想要的东西。。
很早以前就一直在这里了

我想要的东西
很久以前早已结上了

Quoted from Gintama - Episode 103



Friday, October 30, 2009

yrros enoyreve

when people are obsessed with their own sadness
they sometimes just don't notice how lucky they are compared to someone else
Dun bother looking for the new blog
because I had just realized
It's better to revise own self than to blame the whole world
Knock my head if I made the same mistake again next time

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Crap of the day

It's always better to cry now than cry later


Monday, October 26, 2009

Lesson of the day

Stop being self centered...

Saturday, October 24, 2009

response to sc4bkk old post

http://www.wretch.cc/blog/sc4bbk/31367985

A link for Chinese readers for a profound piece. Well, I will never expect him to provide a good piece of writing like this. He doesn't read my blog though, so, I guess I will do a one side response to his blog content.

我们称眼睛为灵魂之窗。耳朵我则不晓得。但是人们的弱点在于太过相信所见的,所闻的。世上很多看不见,听不见的却依然是真理。Galileo Galilei 被软禁因为他不坚持地球绕太阳转。就算是现今社会也有太多被当权者掩盖、抹杀的事实。这个世界有我们不愿,不敢面对的真相。或许更多的是那些没有人有勇气说出口的真理。世界人口以指数增长,相应地每个人对整体社会所能构成的影响变得越加渺小,人们就越不能主宰自己的未来。

Translation: We declared that eyes are the window of our soul, yet we believed much in what we saw. In this world, there are many things that we can't touch or see, yet they are one of those absolute fact in the mass universe. Galileo Galilei is imprisoned, because he believes that earth orbits around the sun, not vice versa. And today cases like galileo happens around us, when truth is hidden or concealed by those people in power. There are many truth in this world, that we refused to face, or choose not to believe. Population grows more and more, and because of that,individual has lesser and lesser influence to the society, and human, soon enough, will find that they cannot govern their own future.

Peace be upon you, but I had to say, I found your statement to be depressing, or even lame. In this world, we had 95% of people who think they should live how the society says, that it is taboo to fight against the norm of society itself. You realized the depressing fact of the world, yet you have choose to be those people who follows the norm. You choose to believe that you have no influence to society, yet you choose to do nothing, you aspire nothing. My friend, no matter how profound your piece is, for me, it is just complains if there's no action and aspiration behind. And because we believe that we shouldn't break the norm of society, we believe that we had no influence to the society as a whole, and because of all these thoughts, we let ourselves being ruled and toyed by those in power. Yet in history itself, there are many individuals , who alone influenced the whole world -Mahatma Ghandi, Winston Churchill, Adolf Hitler, Harry Truman and etc

I know the same thing might applies to me, but one thing though, I aspire to change, no matter how small my power might be.

昨天看了一部纪录片,或者说是在课堂里教授播了一部纪录片,Zeitgeist。它说基督根本就是编构出来的人物,和古埃及或其他文明的神并没有什么两样。(甚至是后者的衍生品)它说911根本就是美国自己编织出来的舞台剧,为的是以反恐合理化自己对其他国家的侵略。它严厉抨击美国为新法西斯主义的拥护者,以及最终以金融陷阱奴隶化全人类。其实如果这部纪录片是纯粹无理取闹我并不会那么在意。反之它拥有可以确认的证据支持它的每一个论点。这是多么的令人捉狂!活在真理与谎言参杂的年代使我越来越难不去质疑任何一个观点或论点。我们以往一直滥用“知识爆炸”这个短语。现在这个年代还有什么东西是不爆炸为快的?真的很遗憾活在当下没有获得多得爆炸的知识之前不能断定世事的真伪对错;而就算已经拥有所有的知识也未必就能找到真理。最终只能选择相信自己比较愿意相信的选择。(就因为这样人们显得那么不必要的愚蠢)

(not bothering translation)

My friend, believe it or not, I actually believes some of the truth in Zeigeist,but I did not mean to disgrace your belief. However in the argument of god, I don't actually agree that their viewpoint stands though. The fact that the similarities of other gods and Jesus actually means nothing, and it is immature to conclude that god doesn't exist because of those coincidence. The coincidence can mean other thing besides the non-existence of god. The explanation somehow, proves that god existed, since there's a common consensus of god features in different religion. You call "HIM" Jesus, while Egyptian, and other religions might call it with a different name, but it could actually refer to the same "HIM".

A story from Christian. There's once a person that wished to find who god is ( he doesn't know Christianity), he went to the highest mountain and after some time, he returned and say something like this.

" I don't know who god, or what his name is, but I know that god exists in three, yet as one identity (Trinity)

I know some of you might know that I'm an atheist, but well..................

Sorry for any misinterpretation, I didn't mean disrespect to any beliefs and religion.

But I do agree that there is some problem in current financial system - the interest system , and also the capitalism of united states. And as the matter of fact, United States is paying for their own flaw in the system. Believe me, the Muslims actually mentioned that the interest system is not a good thing, and surprisingly, their argument holds, and therefore, I had to agree with the clip.

And regarding about the 911 incidents, they are just providing another view of the incident. You say those fact and proof drives you mad, but what you did not know is, - if there's 9 proof that states that 911 is fake, there might exists 99 proofs that actually disprove their theory, but they just overlooked it, or choose not to present it.

My friend, never fear of knowledge, and I still believe, knowledge leads to the truth. When you are despair because of the 9 proofs you know, this might be a proof that you didn't have the knowledge for the another 99proofs. Right or Wrong, is not something you can judge unless you have full understanding, and to have understandings, you need knowledge. So never fear of knowledge and truth. Some false arguments is made not because of fraud knowledge, but the absence of true knowledge instead.

One more sentence to you, I guess. "Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free."John 8:32

( i think i overdone this T.T)