lies and excuse

What is happening to this world?

To sum up, the world I see now can be summarized into these few things.

Economy crisis, merciless massacre, nonsensical dogma, and lastly some immature comments that seems to make Malaysia a perfect place to gossip, (AND to laugh at).

Those events portray the true nature, the dark side and the weakness of us as a human being.

LIES AND EXCUSE. They are the best thing in this world. It conceals your weakness and justifies your wrongdoings. And the pithiest are the people started to believe, and rather, choose to believe excuse as their thinking.

The excuse can be many- religion, races, countries, anything. Aim does not justify mean. However, in these cases-from Mumbai, Taliban, or the old 911, it seems that “EXCUSE does not justify mean,” suits the situation better. To those 911 terrorists, what can you accomplish to your god by ruining the economy of this world, to those Mumbai Muslim terrorists, are you helping those Muslimim in India by having a massacre in Mumbai. To Israelist , why you say you’re fighting for religion (be it Judaism or Christian) by killing Palestinian when there is such thing as “THOU SHALL NOT KILL”.

Those holy aims are just excuses, and those terrorists are the ones that are pitiful enough to believe those lies as their true calling. For those people that vowed for “fighting for religion, races, community, and etc, please see whether you are doing 1% of what you fight. Killing people is not the way to restore peace. Insulting people is not the way to restore unity, and quarreling is definitely not a way to change the country to a better place, if you ask me. For those hypocrites in this world that vowed to fight for their own excuse, you are just a coward that has no courage to face the truth.

And you might ask, if all those things like religion and race are just a excuse, what’s their point of doing all those?

Answer, there are always a few people that like to cause destruction in this world, enjoying at people’s pain, and also some people just hate to lose, in everything. And when those destructive nature people are devilishly clever, they distribute their lies around, “inspiring people” to their own destructive nature, and together they bring destruction, under religion or races.

To me, they are just a bunch of people that trapped in their own delusion, lies is their way of survive, and excuses as their energy to continue in their wrongdoings.

Perhaps, the villains in Hollywood movie such as the clown in Dark Knight are slightly better than those terrorist in real world. Why? Because they knew they kill because they want to kill.

They are evil, but at least, they are not hypocrite.

Regards

Hyde

P.S.Jekyll is on a deep sleep after days of loitering, now hyde will be taking over for a while

A crazy dream

Lately, I had been fermenting on a more frequent basis in my home, and all I do is none other than game...sleep...eat...and sleep. The excess amount of free time has made me thinking a lot, but thinking is the last thing that I should do. Who knows I maybe land on another inferiority-complex streak, or thinking about gibberish that may never be achieved in life.

And yesterday I landed on another thinking streak again, and I just found out the best (yet craziest way) to spend this holiday.

That's it - Cycling along the WHOLE malaysia. A knapsack, a tent and a bike will do will be my trusty tool. I will drive across kedah, then take a turn to terengganu, down to johor, drop by to melaka and back to ipoh. Hundred bucks will be enough for my food. As for accomodation, sleeping in a tent will be more than enough.

BUt will my parent agree with it, will my bike able to withstand me cycling for over a week, will I survive from those thug and thieves that has been ruling around the dark area around malaysia and lastly, do I had enough time and $ to begin with.

It's just a fantasy. But who knows, i might give it a try before I fly to US

regards
Hyde

A cocoon's dream

Frankly, I hate long holiday, not just because it makes me fermenting in home, but also making me feeling aimless in these few ten days.

However, thanks to these "fermenting period" that I am able to think about myself, my views and perspective to people, and to this world.

And I realized-how selfish I can be sometimes, how ignorant I can be MOST of the times, how hypocrite can I sometimes and how coward I can be sometimes.

Life can be a cocoon. The cacoon was formed by it to protect against disaster it faced, and since then, it has been staying inside the cocoon.

It is comfortable to lie inside the cocoon, life could be easier if I stayed inside this cocoon, everything that comes to me, this coccon will always be the shield for everything.

But if that so, it would always remained as a cocoon forever. It dreamed of becoming a butterfly before, but the cocoon shield won't be there for him anymore...

Despite how fragile the cocoon might be, it is stupid enough to think that the cocoon can shield out evryhting. Perhaps, it knows that the cocoon can be easily destroyed by a single gust of wind, and perhaps there are many perhaps...but in the end, the wings are still lied inside the cocoon, waiting to be rotten as times goes by

And the butterfly would always remained as the cocoon's dream

Regards
Jekyll..

Sick...

It is said that there's a weird concept "idiot people never get sick". However, it seems that it's not true at all, for a big idiot like me has undergone the worst days ever...selsema, fever, and lastly, diarrehea??

Thank god I'm recovered, (must be the natural immunue system for idiot has started working ), but seriously, it's a horrible few days I have...

And somehow, it's a weird experience to begin with...

Few days ago...
I was having a serious selsema, therefore I am still awake even after 3 p.m..I can only fall asleep after repeating times of yawning (and blurred vision). However, Selsema has been a good justification for me to stay overnight (to play games...).

This situation has gone over for few days, and soon I realized that I have fever after realizing my whole body started to shiver (thanks to the Cyber Cafe air-con... ).

I decided to go back to my home to rest, only to find out the sky started to rain...

I slept for the next few hours and woked up at 12 midnight, and thank god, fever has subsided. However, my stomach was completely empty ( or to say, I have a habit of eating supper), I ravaged through my fridge to find some food.

I find a chinese pau, and it smells...weird. I convinced myself that it's just my own imagination, must be I'm being over-sensitive or sth...

Finally the pau was ready, I ate it, and tomorrow, I have to pay several visit to toilet while working, with my stomach crying for pain....

Haywired post

First of all, let's grieve on my this semester cgpa

zzzzzzz

And now, a new declaration to get myself psyched up

bla...bla...bla...bla

Expect some changes from me next semester

Regards
Hyde

P.S.- Weak CGPA is not everything, look at Benson, Simon Cowell, Bill Gates, Warren Buffet. They are all uni drop out. All of them ended to be the one of the most successful person in this world. In the end, when it comes to work, CGPA doesn't matter. Your charismatic and confidence, with a sense of taking risk is the one that matters

Regards
Jekyll


(P.S.) P.S.- They are different, you don't have the confidence and charisma of them, nor do you have the qualities to be a 2nd warren buffet either. So, the only thing u can do is raise ur CGPA, (even though the fact that CGPA only covers 10% of employee rate) and considered urself successful when u will be working with those Rich "Uni dropout boss". Taking their case as an excuse of slacking in CGPA is only a lame excuse.

But to Mr. Jekyll, aim for being someonee different, thats your aim from small. Once u have regain the confidence u lost, and after you kick off those sucks habits u have, let's embark to the trip to change the world.

Regards
Hyde

A gracious loser- Mc Cain

I know, I know, general election in US has already over, but please, juz one post...

When people found that Obama presidential speech is good, I personally think that Mc Cain concession speech is not bad either. Not many people in this world can still be calm and congratulate his own opponent, but he can...he can.

OK, this is the text i passed thru while spending my meal in SA in pak li kopitiam

Text of McCain's concession speech

By The Associated Press – Nov 4, 2008

Text of Republican John McCain's concession speech Tuesday in Phoenix, as transcribed by CQ Transcriptions.

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MCCAIN: Thank you. Thank you, my friends. Thank you for coming here on this beautiful Arizona evening.

My friends, we have — we have come to the end of a long journey. The American people have spoken, and they have spoken clearly.

A little while ago, I had the honor of calling Senator Barack Obama to congratulate him.

(BOOING)

Please.

To congratulate him on being elected the next president of the country that we both love.

In a contest as long and difficult as this campaign has been, his success alone commands my respect for his ability and perseverance. But that he managed to do so by inspiring the hopes of so many millions of Americans who had once wrongly believed that they had little at stake or little influence in the election of an American president is something I deeply admire and commend him for achieving.

This is an historic election, and I recognize the special significance it has for African-Americans and for the special pride that must be theirs tonight.

I've always believed that America offers opportunities to all who have the industry and will to seize it. Senator Obama believes that, too.

But we both recognize that, though we have come a long way from the old injustices that once stained our nation's reputation and denied some Americans the full blessings of American citizenship, the memory of them still had the power to wound.

A century ago, President Theodore Roosevelt's invitation of Booker T. Washington to dine at the White House was taken as an outrage in many quarters.

America today is a world away from the cruel and frightful bigotry of that time. There is no better evidence of this than the election of an African-American to the presidency of the United States.

Let there be no reason now ... Let there be no reason now for any American to fail to cherish their citizenship in this, the greatest nation on Earth.

Senator Obama has achieved a great thing for himself and for his country. I applaud him for it, and offer him my sincere sympathy that his beloved grandmother did not live to see this day. Though our faith assures us she is at rest in the presence of her creator and so very proud of the good man she helped raise.

Senator Obama and I have had and argued our differences, and he has prevailed. No doubt many of those differences remain.

These are difficult times for our country. And I pledge to him tonight to do all in my power to help him lead us through the many challenges we face.

I urge all Americans ... I urge all Americans who supported me to join me in not just congratulating him, but offering our next president our good will and earnest effort to find ways to come together to find the necessary compromises to bridge our differences and help restore our prosperity, defend our security in a dangerous world, and leave our children and grandchildren a stronger, better country than we inherited.

Whatever our differences, we are fellow Americans. And please believe me when I say no association has ever meant more to me than that.

It is natural. It's natural, tonight, to feel some disappointment. But tomorrow, we must move beyond it and work together to get our country moving again.

We fought — we fought as hard as we could. And though we feel short, the failure is mine, not yours.

AUDIENCE: No!

MCCAIN: I am so...

AUDIENCE: (CHANTING)

MCCAIN: I am so deeply grateful to all of you for the great honor of your support and for all you have done for me. I wish the outcome had been different, my friends.

AUDIENCE MEMBER: We do, too (OFF-MIKE)

MCCAIN: The road was a difficult one from the outset, but your support and friendship never wavered. I cannot adequately express how deeply indebted I am to you.

I'm especially grateful to my wife, Cindy, my children, my dear mother ... my dear mother and all my family, and to the many old and dear friends who have stood by my side through the many ups and downs of this long campaign.

I have always been a fortunate man, and never more so for the love and encouragement you have given me.

You know, campaigns are often harder on a candidate's family than on the candidate, and that's been true in this campaign.

All I can offer in compensation is my love and gratitude and the promise of more peaceful years ahead.

I am also — I am also, of course, very thankful to Governor Sarah Palin, one of the best campaigners I've ever seen ... one of the best campaigners I have ever seen, and an impressive new voice in our party for reform and the principles that have always been our greatest strength ... her husband Todd and their five beautiful children ... for their tireless dedication to our cause, and the courage and grace they showed in the rough and tumble of a presidential campaign.

We can all look forward with great interest to her future service to Alaska, the Republican Party and our country.

To all my campaign comrades, from Rick Davis and Steve Schmidt and Mark Salter, to every last volunteer who fought so hard and valiantly, month after month, in what at times seemed to be the most challenged campaign in modern times, thank you so much. A lost election will never mean more to me than the privilege of your faith and friendship.

I don't know — I don't know what more we could have done to try to win this election. I'll leave that to others to determine. Every candidate makes mistakes, and I'm sure I made my share of them. But I won't spend a moment of the future regretting what might have been.

This campaign was and will remain the great honor of my life, and my heart is filled with nothing but gratitude for the experience and to the American people for giving me a fair hearing before deciding that Senator Obama and my old friend Senator Joe Biden should have the honor of leading us for the next four years.

(BOOING)

Please. Please.

I would not — I would not be an American worthy of the name should I regret a fate that has allowed me the extraordinary privilege of serving this country for a half a century.

Today, I was a candidate for the highest office in the country I love so much. And tonight, I remain her servant. That is blessing enough for anyone, and I thank the people of Arizona for it.

AUDIENCE: USA. USA. USA. USA.

MCCAIN: Tonight — tonight, more than any night, I hold in my heart nothing but love for this country and for all its citizens, whether they supported me or Senator Obama — whether they supported me or Senator Obama.

I wish Godspeed to the man who was my former opponent and will be my president. And I call on all Americans, as I have often in this campaign, to not despair of our present difficulties, but to believe, always, in the promise and greatness of America, because nothing is inevitable here.

Americans never quit. We never surrender.

We never hide from history. We make history.

Thank you, and God bless you, and God bless America. Thank you all very much.

U application

Paperwork again...

Seriously, I had a very BAD experience with paperwork, that's y I keep procrastinating until the last minute, especially dossier......but the last minute is arrived, and I had to do my dossier after all...

Have to go back to my school everyday to find the MIA headmaster (until the guard get familiar with me), but seriously, my school really changed a lot, a new signboard, a new office for lecturers, new canteen, and..and.. A NEW BASKETBALL COURT (in the place student used to have their *perhimpunan* in front)... maybe this new headmaster (which happened to be a Monash U graduate) is really something...

BUT THAT CANNOT EXPLAIN WHY HE IS MIA ALL THE TIME

After the dossier is done, I enjoyed the short-lived happiness (for around 2 hours) and notice the bigger problem - U application

.I had a few things in mind

1. Should I send the application online or paper?
-Sending application online is secure, unlike post via mail which poses a certain risk. (though the percentage of accident is quite low, there's a chance my application would somehow flew away to the great atlantic ocean in the midst of travelling to US, or worse, the plane might get attacked by terrorists in the way... ==(am I thinking too much))

Then application through online should be safe, but the problem is credit card..

OMG, i am just 18( but my account is still labeled as kid) , and I don't think I would go through all process to make an account, applying a credit card, and bla..bla.. I could have asked my cousin (which happened to be the poorest engineer ever) to borrow his card, but the fee is 150 USD (which can be 600 bucks, not to mention kian hui asked for my help, and the fee could reached 250USD, which means thousand buck

faint..

And I understand "how easy" to get the 150usd from jpa...

2. SAT and TOEFL
All of sudden, purdue kicks away mechanical engineer, all of sudden, I found out that the U i applied is worse, all of sudden...

I REALIZED I HAD TO RESEND THOSE SCORES...

and means another few ten bucks USD...

3.Essays
I hate essay, esp essay that asked "why u choose us", "what can we offer", bla bla bla , and all those essays that asked "tell urself more" when I have no clue what to write.

Actually those essays can be easily answered, but the answer will guarantee u a 100% disqualification...

Why choose our university
Because MIT doesn't accept me, and ur U is in Jpa list lor

What can we offer to help u bla...
engineer course la, wat else,?

Tell urself more
malaysian, currently study in INTEC, passed ur University minimum requirement, wat else u want to know? My girlfren preference?

Of course these type of crap will get u nowhere, but I wonder sometimes, why they bother asking people to praise their own University..

grrrr....

Need to think abt the essay later....