A reason to regret, A reason to fear

And when I thought I ditched my work, I recovered from asthma and fever, things could change to better.

And when I thought I will be leaving this country for good, something happened......

I should had controlled my diet, especially when I'm a high risk group...

And now it might means I can't fly......or I might somehow had a worst life later...

I'm depressed...

I'm scared...and I'll pray for no help...I'll juz pray everything will be ok...

2nd day...

Somehow very tempted to delete this post, but well, memories are indiscriminate, it records every single moment of my time...so, might as well i dun delete this post......

Well, I guess things aren't that desperate...

I'm not yet dead...

My loved ones are not in peril...

And I'm still alive kicking doing things with my will...

And finally the whole things might juz a shockover...

Well, I guess time to put things to rest, to everyone that send sms or juz greet me on MSN, TQ, I guess you guys make me realize I'm not really alone.

Guess whether things gonna be ok or not. Guess this event had made me seen lots of things...my troublesome diet, and also other things that I overlooked for along time. Friendship, I'll nvr see it, but it's there, in someplace unexpected...

Nothing will happen, dude......I'm sure of it!